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Third Date

Our next date (June 18th) we went bowling. I typically hate bowling, but when it comes to hanging out with AB, it seems like I'm up for anything. We always have a great time together. We met up at the bowling alley, and played 3 rounds. He quickly... See More »

Phone Dates

So, he (AB) has been calling me every night since our date (June 8th). We talk for at least an hour, and it always feels like time has gone too soon. We talk about everything, our dreams/goals, what we're looking forvin a relationship, about our life... See More »

Finally, acceptance!

After riding the roller-coaster of ups and downs on the 5 stages of grief, I can finally say that I feel like I'm off it. I have reached acceptance. I realized that I don't want a man in my life like that. In the end, he showed that he didn't... See More »

Working out my emotions

Things are still going very well. Still on the workout regimen. Maybe more than I need to be. I work out once, then feel good for a time. Then I think of him again, then I get sad, then workout again to kill the depression. But the high only lasts so... See More »

A new awakening

I'm so grateful for today. Back on the workout train, took a quick break, but haven't given up. Thought about my ex today, but I didnt call. I did a gratitude exercise, and thought about the things that I was able to experience with him, and felt... See More »

Finding My Light

I'm finding my power again... I know that it is essential not to play the victim role. I am always just learning from life. Some people say that they learn from mistakes, but I wouldn't even call the occurrences mistakes, because they weren't. I... See More »

Just keep going... stay positive.

I think I missed yesterday in reflecting on small wins, so I will write 6 today (3 for each day). Yesterday 1. I called to check on some properties to lease to start up my small side business. 2. I called my dad's ex girlfriend, an 81 year old... See More »

Small Wins

I'm going to try to reflect each day on my accomplishments for the day. Hopefully they get better over time, and hopefully I stick with this. I was reading that reflecting over the successes of your day can help build self-efficacy and increase one's... See More »

My kind of poison

I'm on day 6 of working out. Feeling much better, but still feeling a void from AJ. I really did like him. I officially blocked him today, he asked me to let him know if I was going to, so I did. At first it felt good, but now it hurts knowing I... See More »

Barbed Wire Heart

I have been learning how to self-soothe a lot more recently. Not particularly because I've wanted to, but because situations have demanded it. I think that in my childhood, perhaps my mother was too responsive, so I grew up with a core belief that... See More »

Just asking for a friend

Have you ever felt like there wasn't a single piece of yourself worth loving? Like you've desecrated every level of self respect that you might've had, and let the world eat away at you until nothing was left? Just asking for a friend... I don't... See More »

All out of life boats

I stepped away from the relationship a few weeks ago. I don't even feel like typing out the full reason why anymore to catch you up on why. It just feels like a waste of time now. Ultimately, I told him I needed time to continue working on myself.... See More »

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Crazy, stupid, love

So... we (AJ and I) have had some ups and downs during this adjustment period. The start of our relationship was hot and heavy, and I think he was just looking out for me in slowing that down. During that period, I took his physical distance as a... See More »

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Ghost of Christmas Past

Oh my god, this is always how it goes. It's been several months since I've spoken to N.D. (the 40-something year old guy) and always around Christmas he messages me and tried to re-ignite something. Last year we hadn't talked for nearly half a year,... See More »

Learning more about each other

I met AJ's family this week. They were very warm and funny. I always tend to biff first impressions, so I didn't talk a lot and mainly smiled while trying to not to eat my meal in a displeasing manner. So basically ended up shuffling the food this... See More »

Closing the space between us

I really want to say that I love him, but I'm holding off. That's what it feels like in my heart, but I am going to listen to the logical part of my brain and remember that I dont truly know him yet. Is it possible to love someone you don't know?... See More »

When you love a stranger

... So I've been visiting with some of my girlfriends recently, and oh my god, it is so revitalizing! I don't know why I allowed myself to become an island for so long. Well, in the midst of this... I become curious about the guy that I was seeing...... See More »

I have decided to say yes to myself today

I am reconnecting with the person that I want to be. Getting my house in order (literally cleaning, lol). Working out, and I reached out to some positive friends, because I've decided to be more discerning about who I allow into my life. I tended to... See More »

If you are leaving a toxic relationship...

Is it better to let them know you are done or just stop answering their calls? Everytime I begin to heal, it's like he knows and tries to call or text me. Then the call isn't even about anything. No apology. Just trying to act like nothing happened... See More »

Finding Thanks in Heartache

In order for me to move on, I cannot feel resentment. Resentment will not allow me to have my heart open and in the right place to receive positive relationships that may be out there for me. Although I don't need to tell the person (AJ) that I... See More »

Working on Loving Myself

Just getting back from my trip. I had to leave town to refresh my mind and spirit. I am feeling rejuvenated and ready to become more present in my life once again. I have to be honest with myself. I still have a lot of work to do on myself. I need... See More »

Does everyone deserve a second chance?

This guy messaged and called me last night, and I feel indifferent about it. It used to make me so excited when my phone would light up and I would smile at the sight of a message from him, but now he's broken my heart and I've allowed my feelings... See More »

Timing is everything

He told me that he wished he knew me earlier, before his heart was broken so many times that it became hard for him to love again. While he was holding me one night, he looked into my eyes with such admiration, mixed with what seemed to be a tinge... See More »

At least I didn't drag it out this time

It sucks to do the right thing sometimes.

There's still space in my heart for him

We talked last night. I had been feeling unsure in the relationship, so I took a step back to have some time to think. He had messaged me 3 times that day. Once in the morning, once in the afternoon, and once in the evening. When I didn't answer, he... See More »

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