My kind of poison

I'm on day 6 of working out. Feeling much better, but still feeling a void from AJ. I really did like him. I officially blocked him today, he asked me to let him know if I was going to, so I did. At first it felt good, but now it hurts knowing I won't be receiving any of his messages.

I know he's toxic, and that's probably why I liked him so much. Obviously I didn't realize that at the time. But why else would I be stuck on him like this?