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They call me pessimistic, but it's just that my life sucks and I see no prospects for the future.

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I'm the worst son...

It took a dream to make me realize what a bad son I am... My parents passed away five years ago, overseas. My brother lived in the same city, not far from them, and it was only natural that he would look after them. When my parents passed away, he... See More »

Happy Easter, in particular to fellow people aflicted by anxiety

Happy Easter everyone. A shout out to all of you (us) who can't really enjoy the holiday due to all kinds of anxiety (in particular social anxiety). Not my favorite time of the year as it's also tax season in my part of the world and dealing with... See More »

The political spectrum

Saw some posts earlier today about the "right", the "left", the "Nazis", the "commies", etc., and I thought I'd illustrate the whole thing more clearly: The odd thing is that we're arguing even as we agree on the same general principles of what is... See More »

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That moment when you realize SW is your only social life... [I Feel Lonely]

...then you scroll posts for half an hour and realize you have nothing in common with anyone, anyway... 🤡

I found out I'm guilt-ridden...

I often thought that I had got over the "guilt" thing. I figured that whatever decision I made in life, was based on the information I had at that moment, on my feelings and that moment, and whatever I did, I knew it was just the most rational and... See More »

Panic attack ATM

I'm having a bad panic attack. I thought that was a thing of the past, I hadn't got those for several years, and life was seeming to get better in the last few months, I've even been able to pay off some of my debt (not a lot but still a positive... See More »

That Is It

I've been feeling increasingly anxious these last few days, with the realization that this is all that there is to life. Things won't get any better, I'm not getting any younger, any healthier, any wealthier... The bucket list will remain... See More »

I Am Going to Say Something Controversial

If you're an attention whore (male or female) and try to get attentions by spamming SW with pointless posts, it's going to backfire because everyone is going to mute you (I already did). 😑

I Feel Lonely

I've been living on my own for almost 20 years, but I've never felt lonely because of that. I enjoy the peace and quiet and not having to deal with relationship issues (like I did for the previous 13 years). My parents passed away two years ago. They... See More »

I Am Depressed

I know, things could be so much worse. I'm self employed and lost two customers which relied on the entertainment and restaurant industries. Yet, with government's Covid emergency help I still can pay my bills so far. It's just the day-to-day... See More »

Has anyone here used the dating app Happn?

I downloaded it yesterday just for fun... I shows other users nearby which you can like of dislike (like Tinder I suppose, although I only used Tinder a while ago, briefly) and if two users "like" each other then they get notified that they have a... See More »

I Am Catholic

I'm rather religious, but I have a higher regard for atheists with common sense than for those fanatic religious nuts that do more harm than good and give religion a bad name. I thought I'd share this article, "How a Huguenot Philosopher Realized... See More »

I Have Anxiety

Taxes. Just the word gives me a panic attack. For no particular reason. I've been self-employed for 4 years and by now I know the drill: go through my bank account online, gather all the income and expense numbers, give it all nicely organized to my... See More »

I Am Haunted By My Past

Not an a tragic way. I never experienced anything violent, I was never bullied, I had good, supportive parents etc. But I feel somehow stuck in the past... I'm 54 but I feel as if I haven't been able to start living my life yet... When I was 17... See More »

I Hope You Have Happy Valentines Day

This is a real thing, not a joke. Fundraiser of San Antonio Zoo. Lol... (Quote) https://sazoo.org/valentine/

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I Think I Am Going Insane

I keep misreading the story's titles... "I Hate My Life Right Now" I read as "I Hate My Religion" "I Have an Opinion" I read as "I Have an Onion" "I Love Being Kind and People That Are Kind" I read as "I Love Being King and People That Are King".... See More »

I Have a Suggestion for Similar Worlds

Fix or get rid of the "Request" section in the PMs. Often I've found stuff in there months after they've been sent. If I don't have the red notification in mail, I don't bother to check mail, it's that simple, but I never get any notification of the... See More »

I Had A Weird Dream Last Night

Love how my brain finds way to cheer me up with a few moments of blissful happiness while real life is bleak, dull and hopeless. I dreamed it was the end of the school year (high school I suppose). Early summer, sunny, warm... I had no worries in the... See More »

I Would Love to Live In a Remote Lighthouse

Way back when I was married and kept my social anxiety somehow under wraps, I saw a classified ad in a newspaper (newspapers were a thing, it was the 1990s) which went like this: (Quote) I was thrilled for the opportunity to live in a Lighthouse... See More »

I Have Social Anxiety

I translate articles for a website. The boss is going to fire an overseas staff member, on Skype. He asked me to be on the call to translate as he fires them. I have nausea thinking about it. Skype. The boss watching me work as I do the simultaneous... See More »

I Think About Death

I often think that the happiest day of my life will be the day I die. No more worries, no more anxiety, no more pain (physical and emotional). No more unfulfilled dreams, no more disappointments, no more rejection, no more guilt for my lack of... See More »

I Want to Improve My Social Life

So it's Thanksgiving here in Canada, and I'm home alone browsing SW posts. I have no family in the country other than my daughter, who is spending the day w/ her bf (and I'm totally fine with it... she used to spend Thanksgivings with her mom and... See More »

I Am Going to Say Something Controversial

I just logged in and there was this long thread about "happiness is a choice" and lots of comments about the "choices" we make in life. Well, here's a thought: there's no such thing as "free will", and every choice we make is essentially out of our... See More »

I Think About Life

Ric Ocasek (1944-2019, rest in peace), lead singer of 80s band The Cars (for those too young to know this), met his third wife, Paulina Porizkova, while filming the video for the iconic 1984 song "Drive". Paulina said she was thrilled to shot the... See More »

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I Have A Crush On Someone But It'S Complicated

I woke up at 3:20 AM thinking of my long-term crush. Part of me feels silly by not being able to sleep because I can't stop thinking of her, but part of me feels happy that there's someone in my life I like so much that I lose my sleep over of her.... See More »

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