Panic attack ATM
I'm having a bad panic attack. I thought that was a thing of the past, I hadn't got those for several years, and life was seeming to get better in the last few months, I've even been able to pay off some of my debt (not a lot but still a positive fact after years of either break even or ending "in the red").
I have social chronic anxiety, but I live alone and work from home, only interacting with people I've known for a long time, so that helps.
A note was sent to the building resident/owners to the effect that we must ensure all our plumbing in good condition and are liable for any leaks/damaged incurred for lack of maintenance. Fair enough. Yet I realize I live (own) an apartment that is old so the building management feels the need to "warn" residents that basically they must be prepared for their pipes bursting at any moment. Due to a precarious financial position I don't have home insurance.
Having bad social, the idea of getting a plumber in my house and getting insurance, with all the paperwork, inspections, small print and generally dealing with strangers who will judge me and my place have me basically paralyzed and curled in bed, fully aware that if I don't do any of that I risk the real possibility of ending with bad leaks and broken pipes and ending up causing damage to other units due to my incapacity to be a normal person who does normal things like get insurance and keeping their place reasonably tidy.
I have some Lorazepam pills I got years ago (expired in 2018), which I've never taken because my doctor told me to be careful because they may be "addictive", and I just don't want to make things worse.
2:45 PM and haven't anything yet, I feel nausea just thinking about food now...
Oh and today is my birthday... (no I don't have any plans)
🥳
I have social chronic anxiety, but I live alone and work from home, only interacting with people I've known for a long time, so that helps.
A note was sent to the building resident/owners to the effect that we must ensure all our plumbing in good condition and are liable for any leaks/damaged incurred for lack of maintenance. Fair enough. Yet I realize I live (own) an apartment that is old so the building management feels the need to "warn" residents that basically they must be prepared for their pipes bursting at any moment. Due to a precarious financial position I don't have home insurance.
Having bad social, the idea of getting a plumber in my house and getting insurance, with all the paperwork, inspections, small print and generally dealing with strangers who will judge me and my place have me basically paralyzed and curled in bed, fully aware that if I don't do any of that I risk the real possibility of ending with bad leaks and broken pipes and ending up causing damage to other units due to my incapacity to be a normal person who does normal things like get insurance and keeping their place reasonably tidy.
I have some Lorazepam pills I got years ago (expired in 2018), which I've never taken because my doctor told me to be careful because they may be "addictive", and I just don't want to make things worse.
2:45 PM and haven't anything yet, I feel nausea just thinking about food now...
Oh and today is my birthday... (no I don't have any plans)
🥳
