That Is It

I've been feeling increasingly anxious these last few days, with the realization that this is all that there is to life. Things won't get any better, I'm not getting any younger, any healthier, any wealthier... The bucket list will remain unfulfilled. I'll never get a chance to visit those wonderful places, travel the world. I'll never have money or time for the hobbies I longed for all my life, like sailing or skiing. No, it will be work, work, work with no holidays, living with my lonely self (because I have social anxiety and will never go out of my way to socialize... been there done that...), all so I can pay my bills and taxes, until I drop dead.

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Mindful · 56-60, F

That’s true for most people? If you don’t owe money, you are ahead of most. If you have the chance to write a letter to your mayor or congressman, please do.

Our society is so advanced we live a very simple life— too simple? We don’t have to cut our own wood, dig water wells, pull bath water from Wells to our tubs. Don’t have to heat water over stove or fire. Can use the restroom instead of an out house. Our ancestors wanted our lives to be easier. They accomplished all that for our pleasure. It’s ironic that it’s easier but doesn’t bring joy somehow.

Picklebobble2 · 56-60, M

It’s easy retreating into a’safe’ life.
After all, if life becomes about dealing with the simple things, there’s no reason to push yourself for ‘better’.

I can understand that. Been doing that for far too long myself !

All this stuff is compounded of course by the environment you’re in.
If you’re surrounded by people; jobs; housing etc. that enables this kind of thinking it merely serves to make you feel ‘content’ in your. ‘misery’.

So. In order to get out of it, you’re going to have to challenge yourself to risk change ! 😱

Can you ski ? If not, why not do some research on where you can get some lessons ??
Can’t be that difficult.
And if you can ski, isn’t that motivation enough to make an effort to go somewhere and do it ??
Same with the sailing.
It might require a different way of living life, but would that [i]really[/i] be such a big deal ? Given the potential benefit it might have ?

Summer’s not that far away. Wouldn’t this be the ideal opportunity to plan how you get there and get what you need to do to make it happen ??
After all, these are merely interests.
Fun things to fill your time and give you a sense of accomplishment.
There are plenty of people out there who have trouble getting motivated to get out of bed !
So you’re already one up on them !

contrails · 56-60, M

@Picklebobble2 Thank you PickleB... Money is always an obstacle... Ski and sailing are not cheap hobbies, I can't justify spending money I may need for later just to indulge in a hobby. It doesn't feel right, to the point I would not enjoy it...

Nobody00 · F

hugs Hope things change for you some how

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contrails · 56-60, M

@SW-User I have social anxiety. The idea of interacting with strangers gets me into a bit of a panic. I know, I'm faulty, it's not normal and not a positive thing. I often wonder how on earth I've been able to make a living and live on my own. I certainly feel incapable to function normally. Simple things like doing taxes are a source of panic (anything having to do with paperwork, really). Natural selection should have taken care of me ages ago, I don't know why I still exist, frankly...

lovelywarpedlemon

Help us all 💘🤗

metanxiety · 51-55, F

I have anxiety,but a kind understsnding partner.
I still feel pretty bad about life,but I can and do get out sometimes.

SW-User

Don't let it bring you down, it's only castles burning..

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