That Is It

I've been feeling increasingly anxious these last few days, with the realization that this is all that there is to life. Things won't get any better, I'm not getting any younger, any healthier, any wealthier... The bucket list will remain unfulfilled. I'll never get a chance to visit those wonderful places, travel the world. I'll never have money or time for the hobbies I longed for all my life, like sailing or skiing. No, it will be work, work, work with no holidays, living with my lonely self (because I have social anxiety and will never go out of my way to socialize... been there done that...), all so I can pay my bills and taxes, until I drop dead.