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Having anxiety is terrible I'm shivering and feeling like I'm going crazy.

Out of nowhere the left side of my jaw tightened, my chest tightened and I felt lightheaded and my heartrate quickened. I'm freezing and feeling shaky. My breathing has gotten better but my jaw still aches and I still am feeling anxious. I've been... See More »

I'm beyond exhausted I barely slept last night. Anyone else wiped?

Brain wouldn't shut off, couldn't get comfortable, kept randomly waking up throughout the night. Dealt with sleep paralysis and had a panic attack ended up being cold and sweaty at the same time. I'm hoping for a better nights rest.

I was fairly certain someone was going to call the police so I did what anyone with common sense would and ran.

Mentally I have been a giant mess this week and it is not getting any better. Ever since that huge meltdown on Tuesday I have been really out of sorts. It's almost like everything negative I have been holding back emotion wise is flooding out because... See More »

I feel physically and mentally strained and out of control. I was extremely out of line today and I feel like a monster.

To start the day I was tired from not sleeping well the night before. Work was stressful due to the closers doing virtually nothing and being swamped the moment we opened the doors. I was overwhelmed and overstimulated from that alone. I learned my... See More »

I hate having a tree nut allergy.

It's severe to the point where if packaged food is processed on the same equipment as treenuts I can and have had anaphylactic reactions. It's worsened with age. I have to read every label. Most baked goods, candy, icecreams and what not I'm unable... See More »

I never tell anyone I have borderline personality disorder.

Why? I don't need people judging me or thinking I'm crazy. I don't need a slew of questions aimed at me either. I don't want to be treated differently or tip toed around. It's just easier to keep it to myself.

What color should I dye my hair?

I was thinking silver or maybe blue.

I feel extra disassociated and out of it today.

I feel out of body right now and have felt this way for the past few hours. Im typing and as I look down I just see these hands. I know they're mine but it;s not registering that they're mine. I feel exhausted, cold, shaky and like at any moment I... See More »

Anyone else cash strapped and losing their mind?

I may look calm but internally I'm screaming and trashing the joint.

I love when customers yell at me for their own shortcomings.

Understaffed no in store orders were being accepted. We were only taking mobile and drive thru orders. Two signs posted at eye level on the door as soon as you come in and another sign posted on the hand off counter. So many people just berating me... See More »

I feel so out of it.

I feel zapped and nauseous. I feel like I'm in the beginning stages of an anxiety attack. Not sure if I'm physically sick or mentally sick.

I just have not been feeling well.

Feeling like flaming hot garbage for days.

Maybe it's a stupid idea for a book or movie

So in the middle of the night I randomly had a great idea or at least I thought it was a great idea for a movie or book. It's essentially about a janitor who lives in squalor in a run down small apartment who is just jaded, bitter and tired. He's... See More »

Is it odd to still go clubbing at 36 years of age?

I'm tempted to go out tomorrow night. I haven't been out in awhile because I've been rather reclusive as of late.

I feel like hot garbage.

Tired,run down, feeling nauseated.....head aches.

I don't feel I'm all that tall.

The average male height is 5'10 and I'm 6'1 approximately 130lbs but I don't feel like I'm all that tall. I believe the average is more like 6'0. Tall to me is 6'3 like my partner he's 6'5. My dad is 6'6 and I have an uncle who is 6'8 he's the... See More »

Yesterday I ended up getting high at the park and stayed there most of the day.

Just didn't want to be home

I need to go for a walk I don't want to be at home right now.

I'm trying to cook food, I'm already tense and upset for not having any alone time today. My partner called off work and i was looking forward to some time to myself so seeing his car still around irritated me because I've been starving for me time.... See More »

I love my partner and all but sometimes I wish he wasn't here.

He lives with me and we have been together for a couple years but sometimes i wish i still lived alone. I just need my own space sometimes and sometimes I get annoyed when he's there when I feel the need to be alone.

Why do people have to make comments on other people's bodies?

I've been tall and thin my whole life no need to comment on it or be ugly about it. Especially in regards to family members. You've known me since day one why does my body surprise you?

Do you in a way feel indebted to your parents?

My parents are the reason I have a partial college degree and are the reason why I live in a condo. My parents paid for it so I could have independence and a leg up in life.

What was the shortest amount of time you have lasted at a job? What was the reason why you left so soon?

After graduation my parents immediately forced me to either go to college or to get a job. Not knowing what I wanted to study I decided to get a job. I worked at a sub shop and I lasted not even two months due to being dumped on by the other... See More »

I unlocked a memory from I think 10th grade I completely forgot about.

I think it was 10th grade but it may have been 11th grade. I got high last night and it just bubbled up to the surface and was stunned I even kept it with me for as long as I have. I was in woodshop class, a class I genuinely loved, and I remember... See More »

Are you vegan? Vegetarian? Omnivore?

I myself am vegan and have been for several years.

What is a good state/city to move to?

I'm from Tucson born and raised. I've been wanting to leave Arizona for awhile now.