Random ThoughtsI am really tired of being talked down to, I am tired of being treated like a dog. I say something, big argument, so I revert to my old ways of getting tired of the shit then I leave. Well I do love him so it's hard but enough already.
Random ThoughtsI spent the better part of my life before turning 50, wanting to die. Now I am past 50 and it just seems like I am just waiting to die. I am really hoping that my new meds are beneficial, I hate feeling like...
Argh! My life sux this minute.So I planned this wonderful honeymoon and now I can't have it. I mean shit happens and the money I set aside for the wedding and honeymoon is gone. Had car problems and my money left just like that. It six to make all these plans and then just like...See More »
I Want to Be HappyIt's absolutely beautifully amazing how the Universe lets you know when you are doing everything right 🙂
I Express Myself Through WritingDo I come off as needy? Do I act as if I need to be guided and directed in my behavior? I want to be me and who I am, but I feel like a part of me is missing, so I am at a fork in the road about which way to go now. I was made in God's image, so i...See More »
I Express Myself Through WritingIt feels like I have been on song trip full of ecstacy, love and confusion. Did you realize that when you open and turn on a Samsung product you enter into an agreement with Samsung? I know, you should have to agree to something in writing before...See More »
I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And FeelingsToday I am astounded, so many things I have said and repeated throughout my life make so much sense. The past 3 months have really opened up my mind. Memories of the past that I refuse to remember until now, the doubt that I carried about if all of...See More »
I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And FeelingsMy not random thoughts involve acceptance today. Acceptance of my life, acceptance of coming from a place of love. Before anything else that existed, there was love, and that is where I came from. I feel so happy, acceptance is an amazing thing. I...See More »
I Express Myself Through WritingToday I am believing that God reached up to where I was and pulled me down, but what he didn't realize was, I was already married and no matter what happened to me, my life would always end with my husband by my side. We were meant to be and we knew...See More »
I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And FeelingsSo if my memories about my childhood are correct then that would have to mean that my other memories about my spirit are correct as well. I do or at least I did have the ability to see in the future, and my soul was invisible, I could read other...See More »
I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And FeelingsI feel so lost and confused and I am praying to find clarity. I know God will guide me on where i need to go and what I need to do, so I assume there is a lot more remembering i have to do yet.
I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And FeelingsI have so many thoughts going through my mind. I am remembering the past. Some things are pretty confusing and I am trying to figure them out. My thoughts keep going back to this place, although it's not really a place, something outside of God. Not...See More »
I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And FeelingsThe first time my dad got me pregnant, I was held down by my Aunt Pat, Uncle John, Aunt Barb while Jim Miller gave me a coathanger abortion. The second pregnancy, I was in the back of a car on the floorboard and held down while I went through another...See More »
I Express Myself Through WritingMy significant other came to me on my lunch, which started at 12pm, with a lot of negativity that started with me not calling him until 12:07. He turned into a big tirade about wanting to have an open life with his partner, he wants to know what's...See More »
I Express Myself Through WritingToday I feel like I am desperately trying to hold on to love but it feels like it's already gone, just out of my reach. That makes very sad. I love him a lot and I really want to make things work, but he is very negative and I just find myself not...See More »
I Express Myself Through WritingLast night I took notice that I was a little agitated, I am not sure why. I had just showered and when I was finishing up my fiance said he had made some salmon cake mix and was going to fry they. He mentioned that he wanted mac and cheese as well...See More »
I Express Myself Through WritingToday I am taking time to reflect on change. It can only happen if I want it to, and in wanting to I take steps to change and repeatedly take these steps towards change. I accept that some people cannot change, they are incapable, they don't know how...See More »
I Express Myself Through WritingI am setting out on this journey to become whole within myself. I have been reading a lot about it and so many articles say that I should have a therapist. And perhaps I will get one when the time comes that I feel I need one. I have done so much of...See More »
I Express Myself Through WritingI have dissociative identity disorder. My goal is to become fully integrated. I just realized that I am still disassociating and doing that no longer serves me in my life. I have not been able to be a consistent caregiver to my grandchildren and this...See More »
I Express Myself Through WritingI know that you have to want to change or at least realize that you need to change because the way you do things now isn't quite working for you like it did in the past, all on your own. He tells me he hates feeling like he does and says he just...See More »
I Express Myself Through WritingI have been reading a book called, "Change your thinking Change your life." I am in the process of setting a long term goal for myself and trying to hone in on what exactly that is. I want to help addicts and protect children. I know that protecting...See More »
I Express Myself Through WritingI am trying to find direction, I feel I am at a fork in the road and need to choose which way to go but I just stand there with a blank look on my face... I am waiting for my higher power to guide me, this is not a choice I really need to make,...See More »
I Express Myself Through WritingToday I am thinking about my beliefs I had earlier in my life. When I used to practice my faith in God actively, I always believed thaylt he had a purpose for everyone and that my purpose was to protect children. In the masses, in the end times. I...See More »
I Express Myself Through WritingWho is God? I think that God, my God is a higher power, but more than that a collective higher power. My God has no constraints, no bounds, is everywhere and nowhere, and yet that does not matter. There is no time, no space, no thoughts, no words I...See More »
