I Express Myself Through Writing
Do I come off as needy? Do I act as if I need to be guided and directed in my behavior? I want to be me and who I am, but I feel like a part of me is missing, so I am at a fork in the road about which way to go now. I was made in God's image, so i need to reflect God's will in my life. His will comes from a place of love and understanding. I want to do that to, it makes me feel good when i too, come from a place of love. I don't know if i can find that place. I need to come back to love, i want it, i have had it before, i just don't feel that place within me right now.
It makes me so sad, i feel so disconnected from that place and i didn't ever want to be away from that place. I didn't think about it, it just happened, and now I don't know how to get it back. Tbh I have no interest in being in this life, no interest in living this life, without it.
I know my life is a reflection of the thoughts I carry, but if I cannot look at my life from a place of love, then what will that say about the reflection I see?
And now it's like I know what's wrong, I pray for God to guide me in my journey. I just can't feel the love and I just don't have a clue of how to get back to love, or if I even can. What is in the way, is that within me?
I feel used, I feel like I am somewhere I don't want to be. I just feel wrong. Not that I am wrong, but that my life is not going the way it is supposed to be going. I want my life back, I want myself back, all of me. I feel like the best parts have been taken away and I want them back.
I need to get myself right. Well anyway, I started a 3 day cleanse this morning, a total body reset. Perhaps it will help. I didn't stop feeling love and happiness on purpose, nothing bad has happened, to speak of, but it's all gone and i am very sad. And i want it back...
It makes me so sad, i feel so disconnected from that place and i didn't ever want to be away from that place. I didn't think about it, it just happened, and now I don't know how to get it back. Tbh I have no interest in being in this life, no interest in living this life, without it.
I know my life is a reflection of the thoughts I carry, but if I cannot look at my life from a place of love, then what will that say about the reflection I see?
And now it's like I know what's wrong, I pray for God to guide me in my journey. I just can't feel the love and I just don't have a clue of how to get back to love, or if I even can. What is in the way, is that within me?
I feel used, I feel like I am somewhere I don't want to be. I just feel wrong. Not that I am wrong, but that my life is not going the way it is supposed to be going. I want my life back, I want myself back, all of me. I feel like the best parts have been taken away and I want them back.
I need to get myself right. Well anyway, I started a 3 day cleanse this morning, a total body reset. Perhaps it will help. I didn't stop feeling love and happiness on purpose, nothing bad has happened, to speak of, but it's all gone and i am very sad. And i want it back...
