Time keeps on tickin'
Several years ago I wanted out of this life, things happened and I didn't have time to dwell on those feelings. It made it very difficult to exist. I went to the bottom and decided that life, in a very general sense, is just plain stupid. That is not the exact word I used before but my mind isn't very sharp this morning. I have been praying to find the 'want to' again, but I just don't know, how much of me really wants any part of this life. The people in my life deserve better, I could be better, I could be a better person. I know it is all up to me, but it just seems like, with each passing day, I want to be here less and less. Someone said that I should be thankful for each day that I am given, for each morning I wake up. Its either a blessing or a curse to have to wake up each morning. I just don't see the point, but I am still going to pray and follow my heart and look for the way
