I Express Myself Through Writing
I have been reading a book called, "Change your thinking Change your life." I am in the process of setting a long term goal for myself and trying to hone in on what exactly that is. I want to help addicts and protect children. I know that protecting children is first and foremost, but on the scale that I want to be on doing that is pretty huge. I think about creating a foundation, initially that was years ago, but it could still work, but I really want this to be a global campaign. I know that if this is what I want I will find the way to make it happen and the only person that could ever stop me is me.
I have been preparing myself to meet this goal my entire life. Little by little, I learn and grow into the person I need to be to carry out and reach this goal. I have things yet to do to prepare me but at least I am back on track and headed in the right direction.
Then I think about addicts, ouch, that is a painful subject. My father was an alcoholic, my sister was a heroin addict, my brother did his stint with drugs, and I did too. I used to think about using again quite often, like when my situation changed I would do them again. But now I see that doing drugs is not the way. I don't even think about or want them anymore. And it isn't like before when I just got bored with drugs, I don't feel the need to use drugs. There is not a need within me that I am trying to get met with drugs. I am able to handle my life better now than I ever have and I am growing into a much better person all around I have opened myself up to growth and learning again and in this place there just isn't a place for drug use.
But I know the pain that I ran from when I used. I can hear the pain in an addict's voice, I can see an addict's pain in their actions. Maybe I don't have a magical answer to fix every drug addict, I know full well, they have to fix themselves, but if I could find a way to make a difference in this world I want to find it and do that.
I have thought in the past, what could I do, that could make a real difference? I am past that now, I know that I can and I will not stop until I find the way to make that happen. I am only limited by my mind, and I can overcome that, because I will find the way.
It feels good to be so determined.
I have been preparing myself to meet this goal my entire life. Little by little, I learn and grow into the person I need to be to carry out and reach this goal. I have things yet to do to prepare me but at least I am back on track and headed in the right direction.
Then I think about addicts, ouch, that is a painful subject. My father was an alcoholic, my sister was a heroin addict, my brother did his stint with drugs, and I did too. I used to think about using again quite often, like when my situation changed I would do them again. But now I see that doing drugs is not the way. I don't even think about or want them anymore. And it isn't like before when I just got bored with drugs, I don't feel the need to use drugs. There is not a need within me that I am trying to get met with drugs. I am able to handle my life better now than I ever have and I am growing into a much better person all around I have opened myself up to growth and learning again and in this place there just isn't a place for drug use.
But I know the pain that I ran from when I used. I can hear the pain in an addict's voice, I can see an addict's pain in their actions. Maybe I don't have a magical answer to fix every drug addict, I know full well, they have to fix themselves, but if I could find a way to make a difference in this world I want to find it and do that.
I have thought in the past, what could I do, that could make a real difference? I am past that now, I know that I can and I will not stop until I find the way to make that happen. I am only limited by my mind, and I can overcome that, because I will find the way.
It feels good to be so determined.
