I Express Myself Through Writing
I am trying to find direction, I feel I am at a fork in the road and need to choose which way to go but I just stand there with a blank look on my face...
I am waiting for my higher power to guide me, this is not a choice I really need to make, especially if I feel stressed about doing it.
Things in my life are finally happening, I am really happy. The adoption will finally be complete in just a month or two. I have had my grandchildren for just over 3 years and finally we are at the end of the adoption process. I am absolutely elated...I left this situation in my higher power's hands and he took care if me...completely.
Next is my upcoming wedding. I am happy about that as well, I have never been happier in my life than I am now. Everything and I mean everything is working out for me. I found a better job, I am implementing better behavior in my life which will reap exponential growth. It's so amazing how good my life is after knowing how bad I used to be. Knowing that there were days when I would wake up and cry because I woke up again, that I just wanted out of my life so badly. Knowing that I used to cut and actually needed to at times in my life. Knowing that I was so close to giving up completely because in so many other ways I had already given up.
I never thought there would come a day when I felt so happy and looked forward to living as I do now.
I move forward on my path as I must do...having had to go through so many bad things to prepare me for what is still yet to come, so that I may have a deeper understanding of my purpose. My personal growth is key to doing that.
I am reading a book about trauma and the adoption process, it occurred to me that I can relate to the children I am reading about because I have shared so many similar experiences with them. I was not adopted but my childhood was full of trauma. So now, learning how to help my grandchildren get through and deal with their trauma, I am effectively learning how to heal and move on myself.
It works out for all of us involved, I was guided to research the subject and learn what I could and I didn't even realize until just recently that I was a child of trauma as well. It was the next step. I see that now, I have an awesome, wonderful higher power that I am very thankful for.
I am waiting for my higher power to guide me, this is not a choice I really need to make, especially if I feel stressed about doing it.
Things in my life are finally happening, I am really happy. The adoption will finally be complete in just a month or two. I have had my grandchildren for just over 3 years and finally we are at the end of the adoption process. I am absolutely elated...I left this situation in my higher power's hands and he took care if me...completely.
Next is my upcoming wedding. I am happy about that as well, I have never been happier in my life than I am now. Everything and I mean everything is working out for me. I found a better job, I am implementing better behavior in my life which will reap exponential growth. It's so amazing how good my life is after knowing how bad I used to be. Knowing that there were days when I would wake up and cry because I woke up again, that I just wanted out of my life so badly. Knowing that I used to cut and actually needed to at times in my life. Knowing that I was so close to giving up completely because in so many other ways I had already given up.
I never thought there would come a day when I felt so happy and looked forward to living as I do now.
I move forward on my path as I must do...having had to go through so many bad things to prepare me for what is still yet to come, so that I may have a deeper understanding of my purpose. My personal growth is key to doing that.
I am reading a book about trauma and the adoption process, it occurred to me that I can relate to the children I am reading about because I have shared so many similar experiences with them. I was not adopted but my childhood was full of trauma. So now, learning how to help my grandchildren get through and deal with their trauma, I am effectively learning how to heal and move on myself.
It works out for all of us involved, I was guided to research the subject and learn what I could and I didn't even realize until just recently that I was a child of trauma as well. It was the next step. I see that now, I have an awesome, wonderful higher power that I am very thankful for.
