I Lose Myself In MusicOr perhaps it is that I find myself in music... I am never quite certain. The truth is I wouldn't know myself without music. It is through music that I am finally free. My biggest problem in life is that I do not know how to switch off. I am...See More »
I Am So Fucken ConfusedHow could I not be? The situation is rather messed up. After everything that has happened this last year, I am surprised that I made it out alive... But I did. I managed to let you go by moving far away from you and starting a new life. Now...See More »
I Am CynicalI am cynical, but I have not yet given up hope. What do I mean then when I say that I am cynical? It means that I have hope that things will get better.., but don't expect them to. Not in the least. Many people look down upon us cynics. They call us...See More »
I Have Nightmares Every NightIt borders on a year now, that I have had nightmares almost every night. My mind has been plagued by insecurity... And with it, came the nightmares. I wish I had the typical nightmares; the ones where you're running from some monster... Or being...See More »
I Am Looking Forward To A New Beginning And A New LifeI am looking forward to a new beginning and a new life... Again. And it's not everyday I care enough about something to get excited. But I am excited about this. I just need to make it happen. I want to move to Cape Town in roughly two months. At...See More »
I've Come To Realize That Blood Doesn't Make A FamilyI have come to realize that blood doesn't make a family... And with 'blood', I mean genes. Seeing as relatives don't actually share blood at all. They just share genetics... Chromosomes and such. Inaccurate terminology aside, I don't believe...See More »
I Love Psychedelic MusicI love psychedelic music. Now usually when I make this statement, it is met with a lot of confusion... So allow me to explain what I mean when I say psychedelic music. The word 'psychedelic' seems to be the one causing the confusion, so I'll start...See More »
I Shut People Out When They Hurt MeEven you. I shut people out when they hurt me. It is how I manage to keep my head above water despite the chaos left in our wake. First was my mother. I shut her out at quite a young age to shield myself against the inevitable pain of knowing her....See More »
I Develop Inconvenient CrushesSmiley: It has been a tendency of mine, throughout my life, to develop inconvenient or inappropriate crushes. I find myself in that situation yet again with a colleague of mine, Smiley. Workplace romance might not be such a taboo in waitering as it...See More »
I Hate That We Need Money to SurviveI hate that we need money to survive. I hate money in general. It represents yet another way in which we are enslaved to society. It is a powerful system of control, ensuring that we can never break away from modern society completely... Ensuring...See More »
I Don't Care About Anything, AnymoreI don't care about anything anymore, and all is as it should be once more. I missed this void of endless apathy. With it comes certainty. With certainty, power. As I reflect upon my childhood; I note that I stopped caring about everyone and...See More »
I Am Not Who They Think I AmMy parents. Through the course of my life they have accused me of many things. They have accused me of everything from being a drug dealer to being the anti christ himself. All of these things are untrue. My dad and stepmom have never been able to...See More »
I Am a WaitressMy Experience: A year ago I was a complete hermit. I left the house only to go to the shops, but I tried avoiding going all together. That in combination with the anti-social nature of a stoner gave me a rather bad case of social anxiety. My...See More »
I Always Say "I'M FineI always say I'm fine. Even when I am not. What concern is it of the asker anyway? I groomed myself from a young age to be completely self-reliant for all my mental, emotional and physical requirements. My independence is something that is of great...See More »
I Think Smart Is SexyI think smart is sexy, because stupid most definitely is not. Working with people means that I have to deal with the intellectually challenged on a daily basis. I have come to accept their existence and show them boundless patience. But could I ever...See More »
I Am Running AwayEleven years. That is how long it took me to get out of that place. That literally means that I have spent half my life dreaming of getting away... Running away. I am far enough away to ensure that at least 19 years of my past can't catch up with...See More »
I Notice Everything But Dont Say AnythingNot my place. I notice everything but don't say anything. And why don't I say anything? Because it's not my place to say anything... Why should I say anything? Some things are better left the way they are... Some things are better left unsaid. One...See More »
I Am Fascinated By Human BehaviorThe strangest thing: I have always been fascinated by human behavior. For that reason I try to watch others whenever I can. We are a strange, strange species and we do strange, strange things. Lucky for me, I get a front-row seat to all the stupid...See More »
I'd Rather Have the Truth, No Matter How HardThe truth hurts... but dishonesty hurts more. I know many will disagree with that statement, but I am sure that just as many will agree. The choice between a painful truth and blissful ignorance is often a difficult one, but it is a choice we all...See More »
I Love the OffspringExcellent Offspring Article: http://tunesa.co.za/internation-band-review-offspring/
I Am Afraid Being a Bad MotherSpitting Image: As a child, every time I looked at my mother, I swore I'd never turn into her. She was a good person, but a horrible mother. And for that reason, I am afraid of being a bad mother... So much that I highly consider never having kids...See More »
I Want To Share My Childhood MomentsMommy's Got An Axe: I was nine years old when my dad seriously injured his back. He had to go in to the hospital for a disc replacement surgery. After the surgery, however, we were allowed to visit him. It was about 3:30 pm when we got to the...See More »
I Stalk My CircleFriendly Stalking: But stalking is such a bad word, isn't it? I prefer calling it; 'taking an active interest in your life". It is merely some friendly stalking... using only the data that you choose to share. Rest assured that I do not mean any...See More »
Where do you find your strength?The strength to wake up in the morning when you have nothing left to live for...The strength to carry on when your own strength has been depleted.