I Don't Care About Anything, Anymore
I don't care about anything anymore, and all is as it should be once more. I missed this void of endless apathy. With it comes certainty. With certainty, power.
As I reflect upon my childhood; I note that I stopped caring about everyone and everything at quite a young age. The only thing I was concerned with was getting out... Getting as far away from it all as I possibly could. I often wondered whether I would find someone or something I actually cared about. And then, at the ripe young age of nineteen, I did.
Max. He was the only person I can truly say I ever loved. There was no friend, family member or other person in my life I wouldn't gladly sacrifice if it were to benefit me. But Max. Him I cared about. Him I loved. There was nothing I wouldn't do for him. Even destroy myself. But after three years, the paradise we built for ourselves was lost... And with it the last - and only - thing I ever cared about.
So I left, and cast away the last 22 years of my life. It was a liberating experience. A freedom like no other. Caring makes you weak. Love makes you weak. Now there's nothing. Nothing keeping me here and nothing holding me back.
"NOTHING CAN STOP ME NOW, CAUSE I DON'T CARE ANYMORE...", thus spoketh the almighty Trent Reznor ;-)
As I reflect upon my childhood; I note that I stopped caring about everyone and everything at quite a young age. The only thing I was concerned with was getting out... Getting as far away from it all as I possibly could. I often wondered whether I would find someone or something I actually cared about. And then, at the ripe young age of nineteen, I did.
Max. He was the only person I can truly say I ever loved. There was no friend, family member or other person in my life I wouldn't gladly sacrifice if it were to benefit me. But Max. Him I cared about. Him I loved. There was nothing I wouldn't do for him. Even destroy myself. But after three years, the paradise we built for ourselves was lost... And with it the last - and only - thing I ever cared about.
So I left, and cast away the last 22 years of my life. It was a liberating experience. A freedom like no other. Caring makes you weak. Love makes you weak. Now there's nothing. Nothing keeping me here and nothing holding me back.
"NOTHING CAN STOP ME NOW, CAUSE I DON'T CARE ANYMORE...", thus spoketh the almighty Trent Reznor ;-)
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