When I got to my engineering university and saw all the really smart people, I thought I had made a mistake. Sure, I was top of my class in high school, but this was a totally different universe.
I took genetics as an elective course in high school. On the first day, I sat down. Turn to my left, NHS president, turn to my right, another genius person. Seriously. And I immediately thought "I'M GONNA DIE!!"
earth today as constituted No, I feel I don't belong
there needs to be a major upgrade in the collective consciousness in order for me to feel better about things there is this lack of enlightenment that drives me insane a lack of awareness a blatant disregard of everyone and everything that may not pertain to their bubble of existence
I was caught in one of those corporate political in-fights, but given a rare choice in the outcome. The guy in charge of PR in the corporate offices was essentially fired by the CEO; the Regional Manager whom I reported to was providing a landing spot for him, creating a position above me so I essentially would be losing a rung on the corporate ladder. I was given the choice of remaining where I was or moving to the corporate offices as #2 to the new head of PR which would be a status upgrade by with no change in salary. Both guys desperately wanted me: they were both corporate schmoozers, not hands on doers. I was the doer who didn't like, and wasn't very good, at the corporate schmoozing.
The new guy at corporate level invited me to his new corporate office on the top floor to give me his sales pitch. While he couldn't offer me more, he made it fairly clear that he would be retiring shortly and if I did a good job most likely would be his successor and a VP candidate.
I looked down at the people on the street, 27 floors below us, and said they looked like ants from there. He smiled, and said yes, obviously getting a sense of power from it. I said, "I don't like that feeling so I'm staying where I am."
Best decision I ever made. A few years later when he was retired I was interviewed by the President for the position, considered the odds on favorite for the VP position, and endorsed my counterpart from a different region for the job, and she got it. I still didn't feel I belonged there.
