What’s stopping you from wanting to die?

A real burning desire to overcome the horrible abuse I went through for 2 decades. My life is very small and I have no Self due to it. But yet I know it was because of my mom's rage and repulsive, sadistic behavior. I feel if I could JUST accept myself or like myself like many normal people DO, then I will feel true freedom. To be me without incessant ridicule. To just BE. I strive for it. I want to live in honor of kids who were killed from abuse..because some days it was a real threat. I want to feel GOOD for them as a way to Stick it to toxic abusers. It is REALLY hard when you feel you don't even deserve life..but I feel a need to overcome this trauma.

That’s been a tough question for me the last few days. Knowing that my marriage is done and we will be working towards a separation and then a divorce has been hard. Really hard. I guess my kids are the big thing and also that small hope that once I heal, it gets better.

My perception of my life. Perception is the only difference between the happy and the suicidal.

Dying early just means they won, I wouldn’t give them that satisfaction

Maybe I haven’t had it as bad. But I know my purpose in life and it drives me to keep pushing towards it.

not much is keeping me around. I keep having hope and everything, but then it gets ripped apart, over and over again, and when I feel like things are going to work out, they keep falling apart, amongst the other things that could be mentioned, I have been on the edge of ending it for the last few years, but not as much as I have in the last few months. and I keep getting more reasons to not stick around, than I do get ones to stay, and leaving gets more and more appealing every time I lose a piece of myself.

All my memories of beautiful and exciting things and what it feels like to experience them. And of course hope that I might experience them again some time in future.

I'd rather be alive. Also, watching my son grow and live his life is like watching a new story unfold, and I want to see as much of it as I can.

I want to see more, love more, serve more, be more, do more.

I refuse to let the struggles of life take me out.

I know I can do better.

There is so much to live for. I really believe that. I have more travelling to do, new people to come into my life, money to make, animals to take care of, new job opportunities one day, I have so many books to read, so much nature to explore, and I need to be here when it’s finally made public that aliens from outer space have arrived. I need to see them.

I went to therapy and got medicine

The belief that life is a gift not to be squandered. The times in my life when I have loved and been loved, have felt great joy, and seen the beauty in this world….no matter how fleeting….when measured against the hardship and sorrows I have endured….still give me hope.

Then too, it’s my stubborn nature to carry on…to shoulder my burdens…and walk this world, even if I walk alone.

I rather like living. I'd like to continue it for as long as I can.

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Some days it’s hard to know.. but here we are

My life still has plenty of flaws. There’s plenty of stuff concerning a lack of enjoyment in life. But I went through a period of time of unbearable mental torture like nothing I’d ever had before in 2020…

After finally getting past most of that, even though I still occasionally fixate on suicidal ideation.. I don’t necessarily have the drive or push without extreme amounts of mental anguish…

That’s the short version at least..

No matter how bad things got - and there was a stretch where the shit got real bad - I always believed it would get better...and it did. It always does. There are people who would miss you and would be hurt if you were gone. Even if you don't think so.

Talk to someone. Get the help you need.

Life is truly the only thing we'll ever own. Why throw it away

So many things I want to be alive for.

Food I live to eat

I enjoy things like touring, food, books and cooking, I try to help some people in deep trouble find a better life, I have friends and relatives with whom I connect & care.

I'm interested in this weird life.

Knowing it would serve no purpose and just cause problems for others, despite me believing life would be better without me. But when I really think about it…

Thinking about the things that I can do while I am alive.


After dying, there is no guarantee that I will again get a life of a human with so much wisdom, capabilities and possibilities.

My husband and family. Also adventure and plans I've made. There's a lot to live for, and it's really easy to go blind on that sometimes.

A lot of things. It’s not normal to want to die. The better question is, what’s making you want to die? I’m going to repeat myself and suggest that you seek professional help. If you don’t have access, then find a way to get access.

What's the rush? It's not like it's not going to happen, sooner or later.

My kids, my family, my lady, my dogs, I got more stuff to do, and I have a pretty good life.

I think it's a built in feature.

Tomorrow is always another day.

Wanting to see how life turns out

Ambition.

The list on my mirror.

hope and the few qualities still i have inside me

I like living

God and my kids

Kids.

When i was destroyed by my first wife when she cheated on me many times i learned to concentrate on the one thing i loved. It was my kids at the time. Do you have a pet you love or a friend you deeply care about? Concentrate on that 1 love and it will keep you on a positive trend

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Life itself, Miss.

Lets pm please. I messaged you.
If you didnt get it maybe it went to the requests folder.

my elderly parents whom i think a lot of, if they weren't here then i guess nothing stopping me.

Living and the knowledge that death will come eventually no matter what one does.

What’s the rush?

Nothing. I never consider suicide an option.

Not wanting to die..

I've got people that depend on me. Also I don't believe in anything after, so the end is the end and there won't be anything better

I ask myself the same question.

Nothing anymore.

Cowardice