The thing my boy comes up withSo Joel was talking to his grandma telling her about him getting hurt and how we might not make it over tomorrow for the bbq but he was speaking in Spanish. My boy looks up Dad can you understand Papa when he speaks in Spanish No I can't Oh... See More »
Rainy day in KCThank goodness Joel is finally wake and he ate breakfast. He's in the shower now and I'm starting a pot of beef stew and I'll make biscuits when it ready. Joel's x wife is taking the boys for the night so it's just me, Joel and my daughter. It... See More »
My baby girlMy baby girl is finally back to her self today. Right now he's playing the cello. She is playing like herself Not like Thursday. She is such a strong kid. Since that day I replaced the hinges on her door so it will shut on its own. We also... See More »
I got him to go to the ERThank goodness the boys didn't have volleyball games today, because of the holiday weekend. Joel came home from work and I was ready. He greeted everyone and went to the bathroom to take a shower. I waited a few minutes then I went in there. He... See More »
There is no graceful wayFor a grown man to get out of a bean bag chair. Last night was just what we needed. We made a home made pizza and then I made a fire. We made s'mores and I turned on baseball games. (The Banana's and the Royals) My daughter asked me to sit with... See More »
Banana ball is in townMy buddy got suit tickets to both games and we where planning on going tonight. Now I'm not sure if we should. She's been resting most of the day. She did get up change, shower. She didn't eat much for breakfast but she ate a good lunch. The... See More »
Sleep studyWell I totally forgot about my sleep study last night and the office called me. I explained to them that I had a family emergency and was unable to do it. The nurse seemed annoyed by this and said they would have to reschedule it for June. I asked... See More »
Long talk with my boyOh my tiny tornado. I love him so much and I felt so bad for yelling at him last night. I think it's the first and hopefully the only time I ever do. I am so mad at myself right now So i sat him down to have a daddy son meeting. I told him how... See More »
It's been one year and 143 days since it last happenedAnd I should have seen it coming The evening started as any other. Kids get home from school and do their homework. It's Thursday so it's our daughter's night to pick dinner. She wanted pork chops, Velveeta shells Mac and cheese and s'mores for... See More »
Going to Colorado in June.I'm kinda excited Joel's family reunion is in Colorado this year and we're all going. We're driving so we're planning lots of fun road stops along the way. I've never been to a different state before so I'm excited. And I heard they have an in... See More »
The crazy in my headSo I talked to my therapist and I'm going to stay on my depression meds. He felt a change right now would not be wise. He wants me to get one of those watches that track your heartbeat and I'm to check my blood pressure twice a day. With Star... See More »
Message from JoelHey just wanted you to know I left work early, wasn't feeling good. Had some sandwiches left over that didn't sale today so I thought it would be a easy dinner. I'm probably going to sit out volleyball practice tonight so our daughter can stay... See More »
Weird messageSo I don't get pm here very often but every once in a while I do. Last one I go Hey how are you Pretty good and you Cool Nothing for about 24 hours Same person Hi how are you I'm doing ok Cool Hey I'm not trying to be rude but did you... See More »
Making an appointment for herAs I said my worst fear might be coming true. I have been really watching my daughter since the volleyball games and I have seen movements that have me worried. It happens when she doesn't have her air pods in. Tourette's have made my life a... See More »
It's drives me crazyWhen Joel speaks Spanish. And I don't mean that in a bad way. But I'm trying to keep this PGish. Omg sometimes I think he does on purpose. We'll be having a cigar and he'll just start talking away. Because yeah it really gets me excited. I don't... See More »
Cymbalta and POTSThis is not what I wanted to here today. My doctor said the Cymbalta is not a recommended drug to be on with POTS Im kinda freaking out. I've been on it for about a year now and my depression has been very stable. I mean I have my bad day but... See More »
Long night of thunderstormsIt stormed off and on all night last night so we had to have our picnic in door. I got a big blanket out and we all ate on the floor. It was really fun. I ate half a sandwich and fruit salad. Then we made s'mores in the oven. They turned out... See More »
I just wanted to thank my friends hereI'm not a smart man. I didn't graduate highschool. Hell I barely passed my GED last year. I'm not a good reader, my 6 year old reads better than me. I'm no spelling expert, I'm no grammar expert. When I post here most of the time it's raw and in... See More »
Just for funJust for fun I sent Joel's grandmother a video of our daughter practicing her solo for next week's concert. Her response back had me in tears Oh my goodness. She is amazing. The way she plays you can really tell how much she loves the music. I... See More »
Lots of doctors appointment thisI'm starting to think I live at the doctor's office lol This week I have an appointment with my regular doctor to go over med list due to my diagnosis of POTS I have my sleep study set up Therapy Support group And I'm going to see a urologist.... See More »
I've been eating moreSo one OF the things my therapist suggested when Joel joined us during my last session were ways to get me to eat that wouldn't trigger my my PTSD. He said the trigger is me sitting at the table and my outbursts So he wants me to try different... See More »
Getting old sucksYou know your getting old when you look at all the stuff you are about to order from Amazon and it's Tylenol back pain Tylenol Arthritis & Joint Pain Tylenol pm Men's vitamins Bio freeze Icy hot And fiber gummies I will admit a lot of this is... See More »
Could have been worseSo Friday night we had a talk with my bubby about Star. Like I said could of been worse but it also could of been better. He wasn't happy and said he felt blindsided by Star telling him she didn't want to go away for school. He was also very... See More »
Quiet morning.It's very weird not having the boys here in the morning. Joel has to work so it's just me and my daughter. I got a big pot of chicken chili on the stove. I have a fire going on we're listening to blue's music. My daughter is reading a book.... See More »
