Another night without the boysI have to admit after my doctor's appointment I was in a mood. I was very upset with myself and my head was spinning with all this anxiety and anger. I really don't even remember what I was doing but I hear Joel say his x is going to keep the boys... See More »
So the doctor says I'm not eating enoughSo basically he's saying my stomach is empty and has nothing to digest and it's making my ulcer worse. So he put me on sucralfate 3 times a day along with the Omeprazole in the morning and famotidine at night But the big thing is I have to eat... See More »
What a nightSo I wasn't in the mood for conflict or anything tonight, I needed to be in the right frame of mind for the game tonight so I asked Joel to act like we never seen the email. Not to say a word. He reluctantly agreed. I feel like he was ready to go... See More »
Pressure to shareSo Joel and I have been going to a support group for eating disorder. It's only our 3 meeting with the group but he's already shared twice. We get a email about it each week talking about who's turn it is to bring snacks and drinks stuff like... See More »
I've been eating moreSo one OF the things my therapist suggested when Joel joined us during my last session were ways to get me to eat that wouldn't trigger my my PTSD. He said the trigger is me sitting at the table and my outbursts So he wants me to try different... See More »
Therapy with JoelWell I couldn't take it any longer and Monday I called my therapist and asked why he wanted Joel to come. He laughed and said I'm impressed it took you this long to call and ask. He said he wants to focus on my struggles with eating. He wants use... See More »
Support group tonightWell tonight was much easier for me to go. No panic attacks no anxiety. I just knew we needed to go. I didn't share but Joel did. To listen to his story and struggles as a teenager and young man was powerful. He has his eating disorder under... See More »
Sitting down at the tableTo eat a meal is a huge trigger for me. My tics and outbursts are so bad. I get so anxious and I just can't do. So Joel and I are trying to figure out ways to either cope with this or find ways to get me to eat more. I really think to much time... See More »
