I just wanted to thank my friends here PINNEDI'm not a smart man. I didn't graduate highschool. Hell I barely passed my GED last year. I'm not a good reader, my 6 year old reads better than me. I'm no spelling expert, I'm no grammar expert. When I post here most of the time it's raw and in... See More »
Our oldest boyOur oldest boy woke me up not long after Joel left. I helped him clean up and give him a snack. He was playing his Switch and I was pacing the living room. I thought I saw something behind so I turned around. He was sitting on the floor. Are... See More »
Another fun weekSo tomorrow is the kids last day with Grandma for the summer. I'm so grateful they got to spend so much time with her this summer. She's already asking to watch them on any days off. Tuesday the start school. For sure this time. No brain fog... See More »
This cat of mineSo I got Sissy one of those beach bags for school. She picked it out And this happened (3)
Grandma forgot I don't drink Mt dew anymoreShe found this and thought I'd like to try it and got me a bottle. I gladly took it. I didn't have the heart to tell her I don't drink caffeine anymore. I might try it anyway because it looks interesting (1)
Trying hard not to spiral this timeSo last year when our oldest boy was in the hospital I went into a very bad spiral. Joel of course was with his son and I was holding everything else down. I got so hyper focused on making sure everyone had what they needed, our oldest boy, Joel,... See More »
My tiny tornadoMy tiny tornado just ran by in a flash saying I'm sorry Daddy I know I'm supposed to use calm feet inside but I over slept and I have things to do today and I have to potty really bad This child of mine
Grandma went above and beyondI don't know what to say about her. Since I've been with Joel she was welcomed me with one arms and my kids. We're part of her family now. His whole family has adopted us. I mean she put on this huge birthday party for my boy. She didn't have to... See More »
I need a releaseSo these last few days have been a lot for me. With everything going on with my buddy and tiny tornado birthday I've been so stressed and anxious. I've been holding back many of my tics and outbursts because I've had no choice. Can't let a bunch... See More »
My tiny tornadoToday was our family birthday party at grandmas for our youngest boy. Other than the heat it was a wonderful day. And did my tiny tornado get spoiled. He got so many gifts and money. And when everyone sang him happy birthday he started to cry.... See More »
Not sure what to doMy tiny tornado wants to go see my buddy after the birthday party. He really misses him and he says he wants to tell him all about the party and he wants to eat cake with him. I'm not sure if this is a good idea or not.
Star is really strugglingAs you could imagine Star is really having a hard time right now. She's so mad and confused. She told me this morning that she didn't think she wanted to go to the hospital to see him today. She just wants to have a nice day and enjoy the birthday... See More »
Almost 3 hours of sleepI'll take it. I fell asleep around 11 and I I woke up just before two. That's enough sleep right? Joel will be up in a few hours to go to work. I decided to get everything packed and ready for the birthday party at Grandmas. Packed the boys... See More »
I wasn't sure what to saySo I talked to my therapist about what I should say to my buddy when I went to see him today he wasn't much help. I guess it's hard to be any help in this situation. I didn't know if I should ask him why he did it, why he did it at my house why did... See More »
Got a call from the nurse at my heart doctor's officeShe said sorry to bother you but we think the monitor we sent home with you wasn't working properly. The way reads it looks like you didn't sleep for 2 days No that's about right I told her. I then explained to her that we had a family emergency... See More »
He wants to see me twice a weekSo after my therapy appointment he told me he'd like me to start coming twice a week for a while. He is very worried that I might spiral out of control like I did last year with all the stress that's going on right now. He also increased my anxiety... See More »
I feel bad for herSo star called me to let me know that my buddy is awake and is talking today but not talking about what he did. She is very confused and afraid of what to even talk to him about right now. She doesn't know if she should ask him if she should not... See More »
Not able to sleepSo with everything that happened with my buddy Joel was up for about 36 hours. Last night after we got the boys in bed we sat down for a few minutes. I'm really surprised he lasted as long as he did. I have never been so tired in my life. How do... See More »
Talking to the kidsSo I spoke with the kids counselor about how I should tell them what my buddy did the other day the counselor basically suggested that I aged it down for them and speak to the boys together and talk to Sissy by yourself. My tiny tornado took it... See More »
Long day todayI have so much to do today and barely enough time. I have to drop my heart monitor off today I have a therapy appointment The Sissy and tiny tornado have counseling I have an appointment with my new primary doctor I have to go check on my buddy... See More »
