Sunk costsI'm sitting here depressed today... I knew it would kick in eventually. Even though logically, I'm happy. Logically, I know that breaking up was for the best, I guess that illogical side of me still has to process it. I've had a productive day...See More »
It was a life-shaping experienceI'm doing well. It's strange how everytime right after I breakup with someone I get like 3-5 exes reaching out to me through text or social media. Dead silence from suitors while I'm in a relationship... but then suddenly, it's like they can smell...See More »
It is overSo, after 4 years of an on and off again relationship... I broke up with him today. Via text. He didn't reply, and I don't think he ever will. That's kind of in his nature. It's sad that I've gotten so used to it, it doesn't bother me any more. And...See More »
Should I give up? I'm just going to drop the ball on this and say it... I love my boyfriend, but he's addicted to work. He is 46 and has been married before. So he's not super into the idea of long-term commitment anymore. I think he doesnt believe it's achievable...See More »
Asking for a friendHow much time do you think is too much time apart? What is your minimum? What is your max? How much time to you think is healthy to go without seeing a partner? I'm so used to clingy/dependent relationships that my current partner seems to be...See More »
So this is loveWhen I think of him, I just think of how can I please him. What can I do today to make him proud to call me his. Haha. It's so gross... I know. And I've never felt this way in a relationship before. He makes me want to be better. Typically in...See More »
Bought a ticket to LondonThis week I decided to book a flight to London and visit for 2 weeks. I just searched several areas that I have always wanted to go and the ticket to London was the cheapest, so I booked it. I'll be heading there in September, and alone. I've tried...See More »
Things are looking upAnother wonderful day!... this is suspicious. 🧐Haha. Im trying not to be too leery about it and to just enjoy these moments. It's been so long since I've felt such clarity and happiness, a small part of me is just waiting for the other shoe to drop....See More »
It's a beautiful dayI love myself. I love what i am accomplishing. Im back to my old hobbies... well, some of them. Designing and making clothing again. I would like to get back into writing stories again too, but I will take one step at a time. I haven't felt this...See More »
Grass seems greener over thereSomeone's comment on a recent post of mine made me reflect on my need for others. 'Belonging' is a basic human need. As much as we may try to convince ourselves that we'll be fine on our own island, connection is needed. How do I deal with this...See More »
Double-sided tapeSometimes I wonder. Am I intimidating... offputting... or some mixture of the two? All my life I've prided myself in being a confident individualist. Never conforming to the masses and always happy to do my own thing. I've always kept a small group...See More »
Went on a date!So, i just went on a date. I'm still single, as I pledged to remain for an entire year, but yeah... went on a date today and he took me on my first motorcycle ride, then we saw 'Beast' in theaters because he knows I like scary movies. That one...See More »
Back on my GameFeeling a lot better today. I took a day or two to go "Oh, poor me." But moving on now.
How to connect with others without disconnecting from myselfI need to learn how to maintain the gains I've made independently while interacting with others. It's like I lose myself when I interact with others. I make small concessions that build up over time. So innocous, yet it seems to throw off everything...See More »
Falling too EasyI need to work on not getting so attached. Even when things start out fun, I get attached because I'm finding that I'm enjoying my time with the person. I need to remember that not everyone makes things as deep as I do, and I need to protect my...See More »
I'll be okayNot every day is going to be great, and that's okay. Sometimes you just need to get through it.
Conflicting PuzzlesIt's crazy how much I wanted him despite how wrong it was. When I look back, nothing about our relationship fit together, yet we appreciated each other's pieces individually. And as much as I resent him, I still think of him sometimes. I'm not even...See More »
Today's small wins1. I got out of bed and worked out this morning, even though I didn't want to. 2. Someone from work brought in the cutest mini Krispy Kreme doughnuts with pastel glaze and some sort of creme filling... I went the whole day without eating one. 3. I...See More »
5 CelebrationsI celebrate that I walked 6 miles this morning! I have slowly been building up, starting with 1 mile a day, and now I can comfortably walk 6 miles for my morning routine. I celebrate that I have stopped drinking alcohol for a full month as of today!...See More »
Can't sleep. Let's party!It feels like Friday, but I got to go to work in the morning. 😣 But jkjkjk, not up for partying. Maybe a nice workout or a good book before bed.
Can someone please teach me how to stay single?!I made a promise to myself that I would remain single for the rest of the year.