They grow up so fastThe pigeons hatched a few weeks ago. They've been jumping off this bucket to practice flapping their wings. My cat is loving it (2)
Toxic work environmentThis job has finally convinced me that someone who is incompetent can succeed in a company by being pure annoying. being loud and putting others down while boosting themselves up with nothing to back it up. The GM supports it because they are like... See More »
The Denial of Death“Tranquilize yourself with the trivial so you can live a normal life. Not worrying about the god like problems, like what is a flower or why are we here. Problems only the gods would be able to understand” - The Denial of Death by Ernest Becker... See More »
Power Over Self“The mistake you made was thinking that you had power over me, not that I gave you the power over me. I’m taking it back now”
Discovering another patternI think I uncovered why I’m hyper vigilant around most people and it’s because I felt like I had to be when I was younger and even up to just a few years ago because I didn’t want them to find out I liked guys. I would assess how I was acting and... See More »
Simple is betterIf you try to sound smart by using more words than are necessary or using words you had to look up in the dictionary than you actually come off as dumb or ignorant because we all know that you’re either trying to hide something or feel more... See More »
Random thoughtI was walking around Kroger and I saw a lot of faces. Some looked neutral, some had the obvious “trying to come off as angry or distraught” to keep others away, and some were happy. Time seemed to have slowed down. I was feeling extra aware and rea... See More »
Well that’s not good… lolI did a core belief inventory exercise and it seems that I’m less likely to trust others or believe they will act positively towards me and that I don’t feel secure and connected to friends, family, and acquaintances and humanity in general.
Things aren't always how they appearWhat an odd night. It seemed like a lot of things weren’t working, I got scolded by an instructor at the dance party with this woman I met there for showing me a dance. But that’s something we bonded over and led us to a pretty deep conversation.... See More »
I didn’t plan to have this weekend but I’m glad I didThis weekend was so good. I feel full and at peace, and supported and loved. I started the weekend by going to a dance, I’m getting really good. My traffic control skills have definitely improved. Then I received a booty call at 6:30 in the... See More »
Self SabotageI’m really struggling with a pattern of self sabotage. I push people away when I feel we’re getting close because of something that happened when I was younger and it feels like it’s out of my control when it takes over my emotions. I feel... See More »
Tangled CablesYou know that junk drawer that’s filled with tangled cables. Pulling a cable out of it feels like how going through therapy feels. Each cable representing a different issue, intertwined, and tangled up. If you pull on the end hoping to get it out... See More »
