There's some weird guy here who makes alt accountsAnd starts talking about pedo stuff in messages 😒 he pretends he's from different countries and probably gets off on it. Why are people weird dude 🤦
It's been a really challenging month for meAt first I thought I was angry, and I realised the stress and pressure has caught up to me. I've moved my entire life over to the other side of the country, trained in one thing while working and training in another job that does what it does to the... See More »
In Lew of a gym or my weights I've been using rice to work my forearmsAnd surprisingly it's actually a great all round workout, big veiney pump afterwards (that's a good rapper name 🤔). Adding it to the routine, Plus my hands smell like jasmine afterwards.
New workout approach is going wellInstead of smashing it and burning out I workout twice a day every day no matter what. I do less but consistently and results are better, energy levels are better, and it's a lifestyle change ✌ first week has been 100% consistent
Trauma/memory responsesI stayed at a hotel with a girl I was seeing some time ago and I remember smelling damp in the room. It reminds me of the smell of my dad's things when he passed away, and from when I was a small child. It was a weird feeling that came over me, like... See More »
The feeling when you're an adult living on their ownAnd it might be something like a flu or a cold, but you feel weak, cold and a bit vulnerable and you know it's only you you can rely on. I think the hardest thing about being a single adult is wanting to feel safe or to have someone to hold or... See More »
Within ourselves lies the true self and the earthly mindTrue self: "I want to feel fulfilled by doing a 10k run and improving myself" Earthly self: "let's eat doughnuts and have diarrhoea" 🫠
I heard someone talk about the lonely chapterWhen you're moving forward from where you used to be as we relate to those who are similar. We become unrelatable, like a ship passing that's only there for a night. You don't keep friends when you're always moving. When someone says tell me about... See More »
While I have developed the capacity for sternness in myselfIm beginning my journey of discipline once again. Musashi's book of 5 rings is very accurate in how it is cultivated, the challenges and doubts we face and how to overcome these obstacles. Water ring was how I overcame myself before I knew of it,... See More »
Lesson learned with timePeople who choose to act and think negatively actively push away those who don't. Positive people subconsciously annoy them because they don't share their negative interpretation which creates cognitive dissonance. Eg. If you are calm and the other... See More »
Sometimes I wonder if I'm on the right pathI've left a lot behind in my life in the pursuit of something better in the future, I feel like something is missing. I feel like I don't know who I really am anymore?. Maybe we know and feel ourselves through other people, and it's a lack of close... See More »
The last 24 hours has beenCrazy traffic, work a double shift, find out my mum's kitten is missing, run face first through spiders looking for her (I found her), drive and hour home to workmen drilling outside my apartment. I'm having a beer because god knows I deserve it 🍻... See More »
Anyone else look young for their age?Everyone was gobsmacked in work when I told them I was 32, they thought I was 20. I used to not like it but you get away with things more and I'll look good at 50
The surprising changes that occur from counselling training1. Saving others. I no longer try to save people or "help" anyone, which sounds counter-intuitive, I learned that I can't save or truly help anyone by intervening, they can only help themselves. Instead I offer support if it's wanted, and I take that... See More »
Is the US turning into a fascist country?Or at least it's government. Some observations include: - Language around invading/seizing control of Greenland - Direct/indirect undertones of threat towards Canada - Disdainful attitudes from its members regarding the UK and the EU, and a... See More »
I'm so happyI've been accepted onto one of the best counselling courses in the country. The university looks like it's out of harry potter and I'll become proficient in 4-5 models of therapy. The amount of work I've put into this is unlike anything I've done,... See More »
Having to deconstruct myself using counselling theory is so hardI've handed it in twice and it's not met criteria 😮💨 it's hard delving into yourself regardless, but using complex theory alongside trying to deconstruct your messy mind is tiring and difficult. You're looking at you a past self who you don't... See More »
So I unintentionally pulled an all nighterStarted at 1 and accidentally did about 6 hours of counselling work, now I'm off to London on no sleep but deffo worth it 🫡
Life update: (long time no see)Coming to the end of my counselling training in these parts. Its been a hard road but I've grown so much in just two years. In just a few months I'll have a new career that doubles my income, I'll be two years away from being a fully qualified... See More »
I did my first 500+ mile round driving trip after a year of drivingI feel like I'm officially an NPC of the road now I did nearly get taken out by a truck on a slip road the size of a driveway but I'm alive so 😁
Ever go through a phase where you have 0 attraction to anybody?This past year has been like that, while it's good to focus on myself it's also quite boring. One of my best friends is probably in the top 3% of beautiful people, guys fall over for her, fly out to see her, and Im surprised I have no attraction.... See More »
