How is everyone doing?

I understand this so well... This is a very hard time for many, many people, so, you're not alone with this.

It sounds as though we both took on the coping agenda of showing people what we know they want to see so we can be accepted, and be seen as 'positive.' It sure does make it easier to interact with people.

But sooner or later, the you that you really are, which has been hidden away due to fear of how people might react to you, gets tired of not being recognized and connected with. MY doing that left me in a place of loneliness. For people to connect with my act of being happy and positive all the time, just doesn't satisfy that need for bonding.

With all the judgment and criticism people carry around with them, just looking for places to apply them, it's not easy to find people to trust with your true colors. But if you can find just one person you can share your true self with, it helps a great deal.

At this point, I have just one person in my life (other than myself) I can tell absolutely anything to without fear of judgment, and it makes such a difference.

You can be open and share who you truly are with me without fear of negative repercussions. You're welcome to PM me.

You are not alone in feeling this way.
Different ways out work for different people --
Have you been getting outside, moving around, getting any exercise, eating healthy?
Do you have friends irl or on line that you can talk to honestly about how you are feeling?
Are there things you like to do that give you feelings of joy (dancing, listening to great music, reading?)
Have you looked into DBT? This is a kind of therapy that focuses on building skills to cope with your emotional ups and downs.
In any case, I wish you strength and hope things get easier soon!

Hi Sassy

Im currently going through this after hitting rock bottom. I think it starts with been transparent and open to the people closest to you. People cant be there for you if they dont know what you dealing with. I put on the facade for too long and even lied about everything been okay. It destroyed my relationship.

I hope you take the 1st step. You should go through this alone when theres people who love you and would be willing to offer support. Try taking the mask off... i know its not easy , especially if you've always had it together.

Love and light 🤍

This! You nailed it. I use to be everyone's cheerleader until i realized they weren't cheering back. So, I pulled back and cut people off. The reactions I got were quite eye opening. I'm sorry your going through this. The struggle is real.

been there. know it will happen again. just have to drag through it. there's NO easy way out. because life is up and down and up and down. yes it's easy to say "oh keep a positive attitude", things are out of our control. just have to keep going and going and going no matter what kind of attitude you keep and no matter how grim it looks. Get through it tired, exhausted, sad, angry, resentful, depressed. Just get up each day and do whatever you can humanly do, and then rest. Do it again the next day. Persistence is key. That is ALL that will matter at the end.

I have never been like you. I have always worn my emotions on my face and body like a suit of armor there was no guessing as to what I was thinking or feeling.

The only advice I can give is to be open and honest with your feelings and emotions and not to put on that fake happy face to please the world when it is killing you.

When someone says to my wow your upset. I say yes and bear with me, but this is why. The same for when I am sad or happy or excited or shocked or impressed or displeased. There is no shame in being the authentic and open person you want to be.

Life is not a popularity contest it is a survival of all things, people, places, and situations.

Good luck.

Don't believe what people say for they are just passing comments that have no meaning. It's also another way of saying "please remain in the helpless state you are" and not seek any help.

Quite possible that you are facing monotony in your life. Days are mundane.
Which means you need to find something new to pull you out of your mundanity.

I just wanted to thank everyone for your kind words. It means a lot to me you all helping I really appreciate it

Wow thats very sad i will chat if u like. And i feel the same way but see i cant fake my saddness

I am doing good. My boyfriend took me out for dinner and bowling tonight

Horrible. Won't even express it all here, too vulnerable to share. I think life made me as a joke to have fun.

Help of medical professionals and friends

Find someone to talk to either a true friend or professional up to you
And go from there
One day @ a time
Find something pleasurable/kinky to enjoy

not great but not bad either

I’m being swallowed by the jaws of hell😰