Wasted Days And Wasted Nights lol jk jk its just a title song but anyways PINNEDLol ❤ thats me every weekend 🙃 bc i dont have fun anymore. Jk jk. I am slowly able to go out more these days, past 6yrs i have been locked away inside lol bc i was told to jus stay home after work, had no business going out to visit & i have became... See More »
Wow i made it to 5 months of being sober. Ahhh I am happy.. PINNEDGetting sober/clean Without any help from treatment centers, Medication, meetings, therapy. And staying sober/clean through the hoildays amongst all the stress, triggers & temptations has been the most baddest thing I've ever done. So, i am... See More »
I Believe In the Power of Prayer PINNEDPrayers really do work.. 💖 Beyond grateful for everything, I'm happy that he answered my prayers. God is great.
Ahhh i am jus nervousFor my first workshop in Vancouver next week, i travel this Friday ahhh i am jus shook!! I only have 1 friend who lives in Vancouver rn, cant wait to go explore eee lol im not much of traveler, i get too much anxiety. But, i cant wait for this.
Good news for me.Look like i will be going away for a few day to the west cost next month for work.. I dont know all the deets jus yet but i am fken excited 😆 finally i am off probation lol from last time, bc i was in addition at the time an fked up on my work... See More »
Lately ive been so stressed 😫 excited andWorried all at the same time that I've been craving a 🚬 cigarette Wish I could get out of my head...
Such a sad lonely day today.Another weekend sober while friends be boozing their lifes away. Lol why do i feel like i am missing out on that kind of fun. I just dont trust myself just yet, i be over doing it. Devil has just being trying to get me to relapse these days, i just... See More »
So embarrassing omgFor me is trying to be nice and say hi to someone lmao real snobby feedback smh. Fken old ppl be so grouchy all the time. Last time i try being friendly to someone lmao just gets the cuts 🤣🤣🤣
Listening to music 🎶 Lol im slowly packing here and this song played and my bro can just hear it from out in the living room. He comes to my area and said, oo jus had to come check on you, thought u was crying again. Frick sakes. Ive been so darn emotionally lately. (1)
Was in the city few days, shopping. My feet still hurt so much.Got back home yesterday ugh I fell asleep like a baby on my soft bed when i got home . But I still had to get up the next day to go grocery shopping at my local store... I had a Christmas miracle, my dad is back home with us. He had Pneumonia was in... See More »
Ugh, I so badly wanna have a drink just to ease my worries & stressBut I won't be able to trust myself to have a few glasses of vodka, I will overdo it and be calling up my 🔌🔌🔌 Ugh, I am still too weak but yet I'm so thirsty to taste a night out to relieve a bit of the worries and stress.
I had an interview today at 12pmI just finished, Holy man i was ever nervous and i couldn't fully answer her questions 😅 i kept saying ummm, uuhh!! I fken blow it. I been so fken nervous all last week up until now.... Now to wait for email to 3 to 4 weeks if I've been selected. An... See More »
Its getting to be lonely sleeping alone.Someone to talk to and tell how my day went.... It was a long lonely 7 months being single.. Lol but still scared to put myself out there, i am always home after work, i dont go out or visiting too scared to relapse bc my town is nothing but drunks... See More »
Awe this song just reminds me of myBad girl days, winter season and drinks and just parties omg. Ahh the sweet memories i have to reminisce with. (1)
Sunshine poemYou're here Like the time you touched my face and promised you always would be My biggest fear That hand will disappear And you'll be gone Like sunshine in the dark Swallowed in the night The dark falls and consumes It convinces it grooms It... See More »
I was just shaking todayWhen my cousins came to my aunties place today, they were high off crack cocaine and im still in recovery from being a drunk and crackhead, i still get the urge to want to smoke with them when they come around, fk i swear my nerves were on high this... See More »
Hate feeling under the weather 😒The weather be so darn cloudy and gloomy these past few weeks, making me get all in my feelings. Pray this unwell feeling subsides this weekend, hate to be in bed all weekend..
Wow, its very boring not working lolGot one day off, was going to spend it putting up the tree and ceiling decorations but, i missed my local store smh. Too busy being bored in bed and being extra lazy while listening to good ole tunes Dre was always good at making good beats. (1)
