Wasted Days And Wasted Nights lol jk jk its just a title song but anyways

Lol ❤ thats me every weekend 🙃 bc i dont have fun anymore. Jk jk. I am slowly able to go out more these days, past 6yrs i have been locked away inside lol bc i was told to jus stay home after work, had no business going out to visit & i have became accustomed to me to just go st8 home after work and staying home while my ex did everything for me, groceries shopping, hauling my stuff everytime we moved, driving me everywhere, just everything and now i am single now an i hated it at first bc i had to learn to do everything by myself when i was so use to having a man who did everything, i didnt have to lift or go grocery shopping lol now i do everything myself, i am still too scare to drive a vehicle, ik how to drive but too scared lol my dad one day was going to lend me his vehicle to drive myself to go to the grocery store an i was like eee no, i am too scared 🤣 but i did have to pay a handy man a few time to fix my bedroom door and put polly on my windows bc i couldn't do that. Ugh, its hard, i jus go broke now bc i am constantly paying taxi and paying ppl to help me with things i cant do on my own bc hell i aint lifting anything heaving. But I am getting used to it, going back out there lol, meetings and talking to new ppl. No more being shy here in real life, no more hiding either.