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I Want to Know the Story Behind Your Username

"I'm just see through faded, super jaded, out of my mind."

Heaven Beside You is a song by Alice in Chains. When I found EP all those years ago I identified with this song in a big way laying next to my husband in bed at night. I would lay there for hours, struggling with trying to find another way, perhaps a different way, something I hadn't thought of, hadn't tried, hadn't begged for. Something, anything, that would fix this mess of a marriage. I would lay there, and quietly cry out of frustration and hurt and helplessness.

I have been divorced now for many years, but I will always love this song. It still speaks to me, but now more from a place of strength than of weakness.

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billybcgn25 · 70-79, M
I guess, rather than condolences, it's more congratulations on freeing yourself of such a person as you had.

Mine's a play on the name of the ship on which I sailed, the USS Bainbridge, CGN-25. She was a nuclear-powered, guided-missile-equipped frigate (later converted to, and re-designated a cruiser). She could go fast, and she never had to stop and buy fuel when on station. :)

HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
@billybcgn25 Definitely congratulations as opposed to condolences.

And that’s really interesting. Thanks for sharing.
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
@Simply. I have never felt so lonely as I did laying next to that man night after night.
wexxxxcccc · M
@HeavenBesideYou Do you wish he would have died?
wexxxxcccc · M
@wexxxxcccc you do?
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
I wish him no ill will. I just want him to leave me alone. @wexxxxcccc
Cervincio · 61-69, M
Mine comes from a baseball game that I had on an Tandy computer back in '81. You could create your own players. Including giving them names and certain characteristics that helped them at their chosen position. I had all of my position players set, pitching staff in place. But I need a bench player that was good at several positions but not great at them. What is known in the game as a "utility player". After several seconds of deep, agonizing thought I came up with Cervincio[chair-veen-ceo] Utilio[Ooo-dee-leo]. Of course you have to say it in your best thick Italian accent.
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
I found it interesting. 🤗@Cervincio
Cervincio · 61-69, M
@HeavenBesideYou I find you interesting. 😳
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
@Cervincio Aww. Thank you. 🤗
SimplyK · 61-69, M
I know the feeling of laying next to your spouse trying to come up with something else to save what you once loved so deeply, but I too am divorced now...

Love this song Heaven....great post!
CdAshley · 51-55, M
Mine is the name my wife and I came up with to use when I am dressed. Ashley is my feminine name so I just added the “cd” in front of it for my user name.
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HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
Thanks Jules. I hope your daughter stays strong and manages to get the toxic relationship behind her. @JulesU
RemovedUsername329422 · 56-60, M
GREAT SONG. I love AIC. The album Dirt is one of my favorites. I guess that “Rooster” & “Down in a Hole” are most people’s favorites from that album, but I’m kind of partial to “Angry Chair”. One of my favorites from them is “Brother”. The imagery that song conjures is amazing. Awesome band. I’ve got about a dozen of their songs on my playlist.
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
@RemovedUsername329422 Would? Is my favorite from that album.
SW-User
it's how I have been described by certain others
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
How fun! 😁@SW-User
Thunder · 51-55, M
Mine was given to me by someone very dear to me who I call Sunshine.
antonioio · 70-79, M
You have a beautiful user name.also you must be a very romantic person
Mine is simple, my name is Tony and I put a bit of Italian to it.
antonioio · 70-79, M
@HeavenBesideYou I was thinking that from your posts 🤗
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
@antonioio I lived in hell for many years. Not going back there ever, and you don’t either, ok? *hugs*
antonioio · 70-79, M
@HeavenBesideYou you can be certain I won't
Would it be ok to message you from time to time and vice vice versa
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Tallos40 · 51-55, M
Talos was a giant bronze man who guarded the island of Crete by throwing stones at the ships of unwanted visitors. He was most probably created by Hephaestus and given to either Minos or Europa as a gift. I did add another L to it but this is where it originated from.
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
That’s interesting. Thanks for sharing @Tallos40
billybcgn25 · 70-79, M
@HeavenBesideYou, And the US Navy named one of the shipborne surface-to-air missiles was also named Talos. :)
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
I'm sorry you know the feeling @Simply. It is an awful way to live, night after night. Hugs
aldnazmeister · 56-60, M
You have a beautiful username. Sorry that it came about the way it did, but nothing wrong with having an appreciation for this song.
My user name is a mixture of my name, and a play on words of "meister" because I am not a master of anything, but I thought it sounded cool; and I use to drink Jagermeister.
Wow!! I can relate to this feeling from so many years back.

Not able to play the video but I'll listen to that song now... I'm so intrigued to hear the lyrics that resonated so strongly with your feelings, HBY! 😘
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
@Vivaci I hope you enjoy it when you can listen to it. It is one of the songs that really got under my skin all those years ago. 🤗
@HeavenBesideYou Ooh, now I can see why!! 🤗😔 Its such a sad song. Those lyrics deeply touched my heart. 💕
sunrisehawk · 61-69, M
Great story,

Mine was an accident. There were not enough spaces for a username on a different site and the email I was using at the time ended up being shortened to this username. Accident and coincidence that the shortened word was a word....
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
@sunrisehawk I almost just picked something else since those days are over, but my friend Fun who told me to give this place a shot nixed the idea.
SimplyK · 61-69, M
@Heaven...night after night, weeks and months slowly slipping by but the years passing so quickly....

It's over now, I look at it now as a lesson....I will not be with anybody going forward who makes me unhappy, who makes it a challenge to enjoy life....I would much rather be alone...
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
@HikingMan @masterofyou
When we write, the infliction is absent, and sometimes we take things as serious when they were just meant to be funny. I’m thinking that is what happened here.
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
@HikingMan 🤗
masterofyou · 70-79, M
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
Coldplay · 61-69, M
Wow…that story. Sounds like you made it through.

I picked Coldplay because of the song Yellow. I so much wanted to feel that way, as the lyrics describe. I think we have had similar feelings at some point.
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
@Coldplay it’s a great song.
RobG22 · 51-55, M
My screen name is HPuck2212. I played hockey, so that HPuck is for hockey puck. The 2212 are favorite numbers 22 and 12.
RobG22 · 51-55, M
@HeavenBesideYou that's my youngest son's favorite number.
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
@RobG22 Boy has good taste in numbers 😉
RobG22 · 51-55, M
Thanks.😀
Peaches · F
Yes, it's painful to be in love with someone that doesn't love you.💔I've never heard this before, thanks for sharing and I'm so sorry you had to go through that with your ex.😞Many of us can relate.
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
@Peaches If you asked him he would say he still loves me, even though it's been almost 10 years since our divorce, and I believe him.

Being empathetic by nature I have learned is the #1 thing narcisissists look for and cling to, which is a large part of why I remain single.
Peaches · F
@HeavenBesideYou My ex was like that too...is there something in the water?!😯There's no cure for that type of personality I hear.😞
masterofyou · 70-79, M
This song haunts me as I have lived it. This song is about the personal battle that rages on inside our heads. Heaven beside you - this is what your partner and friends may think of your well being. Hell within - is what you are feeling personally. Sorry about what happened in your life....
masterofyou · 70-79, M
@HeavenBesideYou It can be very disheartening to care for someone who does not care for himself . After a while, you can start to feel that your efforts are wasted; you spend time and energy trying to boost your partner up, and he or she tries just as hard to tear himself down again. I bet you still love him and it still haunts you...
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
@masterofyou Real love is eternal, but he was controlling and a narcissist, and honestly it took a lot for me to get out of that relationship. So while you are right that it may still haunt me from time to time, it's nothing I would ever go back to.
masterofyou · 70-79, M
@HeavenBesideYou I understand.... Bless you ....
HikingMan · 51-55, M
I am, A Hiking Man.
masterofyou · 70-79, M
@HikingMan Nice shot where was that taken.. And what altitude???
HikingMan · 51-55, M
It's on the Southern shoulder of Mt. Washington, in NH. Just above and east of Tuckermans Ravine at a place called The Lion's Head
HikingMan · 51-55, M
It's below the summit which sits at 6,288', so probably at 5000' or so above sea level.
traceavery · 70-79, M
It's my Penn Name from when I write. I made it up because I wanted something like Mark Twain... simple but catchy.
traceavery · 70-79, M
@HeavenBesideYou Thanks Sweetheart! Hugs to you my friend!
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
Hugs back at you! 🤗@traceavery
traceavery · 70-79, M
@HeavenBesideYou Like that!😉
rjc36 · 61-69, M
I am glad to hear that you have gone through the worst of times and came out stronger on the other side. Always look for the good and keep it with you.
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
I wasn't really looking, but the good found me, and I'm keeping him. 😉@rjc36
CdAshley · 51-55, M
Well Ashley is the name my wife and I came up with to separate the two. My male and female side and well the CD is self explanatory.
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
@CdAshley Ashley is a nice name. 🤗
CdAshley · 51-55, M
Thanks so much. I like it as well. 😘@HeavenBesideYou
Hotelroom38 · 51-55, M
I was traveling in Italy (unfortunatley for work) and came across EP so signed up with the room number I was staying in.. so Hotelroom38...

Not very glam I know...
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
It works!! 😁@Hotelroom38
estand · 61-69, M
Estand was my secret name when I was a teenager, two of my friends Véronique and Thierry knew I was ready for any dare when they heard me say it.
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
That’s a cool way to come up with a user name! Thanks for sharing. @estand
SweetMae · 70-79, F
I am happy that you were able to make a new life for yourself.

Sweet was the only adjective EP had available for Mae when I signed up.
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
@SweetMae It fits you sis. 😘
SweetMae · 70-79, F
@HeavenBesideYou Thank you! 😘
NiteRaven93 · 31-35, M
I chose my name from an anime I watch. Fairy Tail. The Main character is probably one of my favorite main characters of all anime and he's what you call a Dragon Slayer
Callaghen · 61-69, M
oh and yeah Callaghen was a soldier , Irish by birth , fighting in the north vs south Confederate and Yankee blue jacket , a novel by Louis Lamour
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
That’s interesting. Thanks. @Callaghen
4thdimensiondream · 61-69, M
I’m waiting for someone to know what mine is from. Like you said in your About me, if they do know then we are already friends.
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
@4thdimensiondream Right!! 😊
I am so sorry Lady Heaven... but as you said, you are in a stronger and better place now.... Heaven beside us, indeed..
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
Ah sis... we have talked about this. I’m so very happy to have gotten out from under that, and I’m so very happy you did too. Love you bunches 🤗💗🌷 @Soossie
@HeavenBesideYou

Love you too.. 🤗❤️❤️
Subsumedpat · 36-40, M
It kind of speaks to the level I have fallen for submission.
Subsumedpat · 36-40, M
@HeavenBesideYou I am well not normally but I have certain weakness for it and can fall right into it.
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
@Subsumedpat I can play both ways, with my guy, but not as a lifestyle.
Subsumedpat · 36-40, M
@HeavenBesideYou I can understand that, I role play a lot but would not want to do it all the time. Fetish puts me there though till I am let out.
Cantsayno · 51-55, M
So my name represents that I put everyone’s needs in front of my own. I don’t ever say no.
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
It’s important to be able to say no sometimes Hon. @Cantsayno
Cantsayno · 51-55, M
I know, but for some reason it very hard for me. @HeavenBesideYou
dejagroove · 61-69, M
There I am working in the yard, jammin out to the radio and I hear the first couple notes...gives me a smile 😎, puts me in a groovy mood, and I'm singing away 😙.
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SimplyK · 61-69, M
@Heaven..unfortunately I know exactly how you felt during that time...the loneliness and how empty it made me felt...
fett253 · 41-45, M
Mine has been my tag ever since gaming from Boba Fett being my favorite bounty hunter, but the translation also works well. XD
TexasGrandpa · 61-69, M
Well I think mine is a bit self explainitory......lol
TexasGrandpa · 61-69, M
@HeavenBesideYou No, no, that's not it at all. 🥴
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
Gee, really? I was so sure!! @TexasGrandpa
TexasGrandpa · 61-69, M
@HeavenBesideYou Not to worry, it's a common mistake
FunGuy · 46-50, M
I chose mine because it's a reflection of my personality...it's just who I am, or at least who people say I am.
Wizardry · 46-50, M
Just came to mind when I joined up on hear
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
@Wizardry And here I was thinking you had some special powers or something. 😁
Wizardry · 46-50, M
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
@Wizardry Bugger!! 😜
Heartlander · 80-89, M
Very touching. Prisons without walls.

Thanks for sharing.
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
Yes. Control by whatever means he could manage @Heartlander
Heartlander · 80-89, M
@HeavenBesideYou It's as much fun just seeing children, spouses and loved ones freely enjoying and experiencing their lives. Controlling people miss out on half of life's fun. I almost feel sorry for them.
got mine years a go when i was in my teens,,I liked married women, few times the hubby got home early from work,,my friend started calling me Jackrabbit,,,🐰
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
@jackrabbit10 Hahaha. If the shoe fits…
Bluesky53 · 61-69, M
mine,bluesky,name from song,allman brothers.willie nelson,ELO,
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HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
Thanks Hon. 🤗@nudydudette
Atrevido1 · 61-69, M
Cool. Atrevido means daring in Spanish. Mostly wishful thinking
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
You definitely are a daring one. You jumped right into the hurricane and didn’t even flinch. 😉💋@Atrevido1
Wrestlingfanforever71 · 51-55, M
I just love watching wrestling
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
Sometimes it’s on tv on a Friday night and I can’t be bothered to change it. Does that count?@Wrestlingfanforever71
Wrestlingfanforever71 · 51-55, M
@HeavenBesideYou that does count
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
Texaspumper · 61-69, M
Mine is where I’m from and what my job is called.
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
Very nice! Thanks. 🤗@Texaspumper
yours is a nice name. i didnt choose my name , it chose me
JohnnySpot · 56-60, M
Did it not use to be a little bit different?
Justme5969 · 61-69, M
Great song! Glad everything is better!
HeavenBesideYou · 56-60, F
Thanks me too. 🤗@Justme5969

 
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