I Wonder What My Purpose Here IsWritten 8/28/19, but I forgot to post it: I really don't know what interests me anymore. I feel like I've lost my zest for life. I even have the opportunity to get 2 years worth of schooling paid for myself, but I don't know what to pick. I used to...See More »
I Am GratefulToday I am grateful to have the team that I have at work. More specifically, a full team. My area has been short-staffed for about a year, and now I finally have a team! They are well-experienced and knowledgable and open to hearing other people's...See More »
I Want to Think of 100 Things That Make Me HappyFour As mentioned in my last post, in college, I found another interest that made me happy... and no. It's not what you were thinking (get your mind out of the gutter!). I realized my desire to design and create fashion pieces. I had always had an...See More »
I Want to Think of 100 Things That Make Me Happy3 Writing makes me happy. I should get back to doing more of that. I think I started writing stories when I was in the 2nd or 3rd grade. I remember having a task in school, to write a sentence that went along with a picture shown on each page of the...See More »
I Want to Think of 100 Things That Make Me HappyOh my goodness! I had meant to write 1 thing that makes me happy, every day, until I got to 100 things. I kind of let time get away from me the past few weeks and now I have 23 things to catch up on. Two I am so thankful for my family. I was...See More »
I Want to Think of 100 Things That Make Me HappyNumber One The orange morning light poured through the window and washed over us. I turned onto my side, and there you were, smiling back at me. I placed my leg over yours, ankles linked, your hand firmly rests on my back. Our eyes squint in...See More »
I Have Thoughts That Keep Me Up At NightThis is so weird. I haven't felt this amount of pain in such a long time, that I nearly forgot it was possible. It feels so raw, so deep, yet in some strange twisted way, it's refreshing. I'm not here to be emo. Just to write about an epiphany...See More »
I Have Thoughts That Keep Me Up At NightWhat did you feel when you were with me? I want to know. Did your heart pound against your chest from the excitement of my fingertips against your skin? Did your chest rise and fall? Heavy. As you gasped for breath, attempting to hold back the...See More »
I Am SingleSo naturally, after writing a post saying that I'm completely over the guy who didn't call back, I call him back. Worst move ever. I know. At the moment I wasn't sure what to attribute the 'no-call lapse' to. At first, I thought, "Okay, I should...See More »
I Need to Get Something Off My ChestI'm so upset. It's been over a month and a half, and no call. We had discussed that we would reconvene after the month and a half period to check-in and see where we were at. As hard as I've tried, I wasn't able to get over him. I tried to move...See More »
I Am GratefulI am so grateful to feel like myself again. It was a long process, but I've definitely come out on the other side for the better. I don't know how to explain it, but I feel a new strength within me, so powerful that it shines on the outside too. I...See More »
I Am GratefulI am grateful for another opportunity at life! I did absolutely nothing to deserve this moment, and yet I AM HERE! I am so appreciative of my sight, the ability to taste and touch, and to interact with the world in so many profound ways. I am...See More »
I Am GratefulI am grateful today for life. I am grateful that I got to see my dad this weekend. We had an engaging conversation about social issues in the United States. We don't talk that often, so I'm always grateful when the universe aligns in a way that...See More »
I Express Myself Through WritingI am absolutely me right now. I just need to get that out before I continue. I haven't let the absence of him take me off track from the goals that I'm currently pursuing. I'm continuing to seek out my interests (reading, writing,...See More »
I Believe People Come Into Your Life For a ReasonDear K.W., I've finally muddled through the hurricane that was my emotions during this breakup process. I sulked, I talked with friends, journaled, became angry, bargained, sulked again, and now I'm on the other side. My heart is still again, and...See More »
I Miss Someone I Shouldn'tJust wanted to say I knew it was your birthday today. August 7th. I didn't forget. Normally I do. Birthdays aren't really a big deal to me, but you surprised me for mine, buying me that travel book and talking about how you would like to go somewhere...See More »
I Am Currently Reading This BookDear K.W., We're still not talking, but I am currently reading Fahrenheit 451 and a section made me think of you. Remember when we were talking about US citizens lack of awareness of politics and world occurrences?... How we pondered whether our (US...See More »
I Need to Get Something Off My ChestIt's so funny. I want to write, but at the same time, I feel like there's nothing left to be said. I've vented it all, shared it all... there's really nothing left to voice, but the emotions are still here, and there's this little part of me that...See More »
I Express Myself Through WritingDear K.W., Since you won't talk to me anyone, I guess I'll write a fictitious letter to you. It would've been nice to have had a two-sided conversation, but this imaginary postcard will have to suffice. I want to start by saying it was all my shit....See More »
I Am SingleSo, I'm angry now, but I guess that's a part of the process. At least it's a part of my process. 1. Shock 2. Feelings of inadequacy 3. Bargaining/negotiating 4. Faulty acceptance 5. Sadness 6. Anger 7. ... more sadness 8. Actual acceptance I'm...See More »
I Am MeSometimes you just have to embrace your flaws. I wouldn't say that I'm at the point where I can "laugh at myself" just yet. But I can definitely lightly smirk at my old self, slipping into my new life to say hello from time to time. As a matter of...See More »
I Am GratefulI am grateful for perspective. Not long ago, everything felt so black and white. "I'm terrible." "I'm great." "He loves me." "He hates me." "I can't do anything." "I'm right on track." Obviously, these thoughts put me through a lot of stress and used...See More »
I Am On a Self Improvement JourneyAs you could see from my last journal entry, I have just gotten out of a recent relationship. Tomorrow will make it a week that we have been broken up. We talked on the phone yesterday. It was the first time since we had ended things, and we decided...See More »
I Am SingleSo, we just got off the phone. We talked for about 45 minutes, which is way less than we used to, with many minutes of silence in between. Initially, he had asked that we 'remain friends'. I wasn't really sure what that looked like, and neither was...See More »