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Have you ever had a drug problem?

This isn't for judging.. I'm just looking to share experiences. So I'll go ahead.

I started trying drugs at a very early age. I was 11 & I grew up in environments that deprived me of most of my childhood.
It started with weed. Then I tried liquor shortly after. By the time I was 12 I was already starting to try different pills to see how it all felt.

So most of my usage was all weed, alcohol, & pills until I got older. After high school I was kicked out of my house & I spent time on the streets. I was homeless for a time period, which coincideded with the same time SW first opened up. I was here & I posted regularly but I never fully opened up about what I was going through. At that time I wasn't addicted to hard drugs, but I did them often.

Actually I was never truly addicted to the hard stuff. I just didn't care & I did whatever. I had a very apathetic mindset. I didn't care about anything & the way I saw life was "f*ck it, if I die then at least I don't have to be here anymore".
I think that the reason I did all those drugs was because part of me hoped it would be the reason I didn't wake up one day.

It's crazy to admit that even now because I was always such a funny person & always joking around. I still am.

The night I stopped was because I realized all that & when it all hit me I felt like absolute shit. But I knew I was lucky because I shouldn't even still be alive.
The night before, I drank the entire day, smoked nonstop, drank half a bottle of codeine, fought somebody, ran from the cops, ended up at a crack house where I proceeded to pop 3 Xanax, then I crushed 3 more Xanax & snorted all of it.
Didn't stop there though. I followed that up with 3 lines of coke, 2 bumps of meth, then last.. we smoked heroin (which shockingly was the only thing I'd never done until then).
All while I still smoked weed & drank throughout all of that 🤷

The way I felt the next day was the sickest I'd ever felt in my life & I kept asking myself "why tf am I still even here?" It was my sister's birthday & she's the most important person in my life.
I didn't even tell her happy birthday but I could waste the whole day getting f**ked up...
I hated how far I'd gone at that point.

Idk. It's not much of a quitting story but I never went back after that.
I simply got sick of feeling that way.
I joke about drugs or whatever on here sometimes but believe me it all comes from experience. I'm clean now
Although I do smoke weed all the time still 🙌😂

& I don't drink like I used to either, despite my name 😅 but I definitely still drink lol. But hey that's me I guess 🤷

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TheOneyouwerewarnedabout · 41-45, MVIP

I say no to drugs..
but they dont listen

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@TheOneyouwerewarnedabout did you try yelling at them?

kodiac · 22-25, M

When i was 10 the priests started giving me wine ,it made it easier for them to do.stuff and kept me from fighting. From there it progressed to roofies and hard liquor which zoned me out so much i didn't even know or remember what was happening. I needed it to survive. . Moved on to meth coke and pills because i couldn't deal with reality. Then i discovered dilaudid and got hooked hard . I never made a decision to quit i just got so far from that world i had no choice. I ratnted raved cried puked shook like a leaf for two solid week. I been clean since i joined sw and moved to the sticks of West Virginia.

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kodiac · 22-25, M

@Roadsterrider was he at the old haunted prison? That place is creepy as hell lol . We are 25 miles from Moundsville . Gos country lol

Roadsterrider · 56-60, M

@kodiac That is the one. He never mentioned any ghost stories though. Last Halloween I did a tour of the State Mental Hospital in Weston, that is a spooky place. Just reading about some of the stuff they did there is enough to scare me. Ice pick lobotomies, electrical shock therapy. Some crazy stuff, pictures of the patients getting zapped. I will take a tour of the prison sooner or later, might be a thing to do this year for Halloween.

kodiac · 22-25, M

@Roadsterrider Absolutely do it! It's been in all the ghost hunter shows. I have some pics of outside I'll try to find and post.

bijouxbroussard · F

I experimented as a teenager, weed, cocaine, heroin even (smoked not injected). I was really, really lucky I stopped early and was never addicted. There were a lot of alcoholics and substance abusers, especially on my mother’s side of the family. My youngest sister has been fighting the battle for decades. Neither my mother nor my brother touch alcohol. Today I’m limited to the occasional edible to sleep, and a single drink once in awhile.

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bijouxbroussard · F

@DarkHeaven Both of my sisters modeled. My middle one managed not to get caught up in that, but our youngest sister already had problems.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@bijouxbroussard Who would've thought 🤷 you're so innocent in my eyes. But I'm glad you got away before it got bad too. Some people can, others miss that checkpoint. & I can relate to it being a family thing. It runs in mine as well. In fact I'm always warned that every man in my family has died from alcohol. I still drink though. But I'm proud for you & your brother both 🙏 breaking cycles

DarkHeaven ·

@bijouxbroussard that’s so sad, I’m sorry. I don’t have substance issues but it did leave me with my anorexia, so that kinda sucks. been fighting that since 16 years old.

Mamapolo2016 · F

I went to a 30 day rehab for alcohol in 2016, and it was one of the most significant months in my life, primarily because of the others there, most of them children to me.

Haven't had a drink since, and I not only don't miss it, I rarely think about it.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Mamapolo2016 that's awesome. Some people can walk away once something hits them.. some people never get that. I'm glad you did though

Mamapolo2016 · F

@ChiefWalksWith40oz Me too! About you too!

Jenny1234 · 51-55, F

I’ve never even seen drugs let alone done them. About eight years ago I thought I found drugs in a packet on the sidewalk. It was a white powder. I picked it up and brought it home and called the police. The officer came to my house and I showed it to him. He said well it certainly looks like it but then he tried it and told me it was just peppermint. We had a great laugh

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Jenny1234 lol well I'm glad that turned out okay 😂 that makes it kinda funny but yeah I've found drugs on floors before & it annoyed me because what if somebody else found it?

Jenny1234 · 51-55, F

@ChiefWalksWith40oz exactly and that was my concern because I was worried kids would pick it up and think it was candy and then get sick or even die

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Jenny1234 Yeah that would be messed up. That's why I always picked stuff up like that & threw it out. When it was in my own house, I kicked everyone out. Because there's no reason it should be in the open for anyone to touch

Dainbramadge · 56-60, M

Great share chief.
Drinking was my drug of choice even though I have done others.
The only one that stuck with me on a regular basis was drinking.
Got my first fifth on my 17th birthday. It was game on after that.
It was a form of self-medicating. I had or rather have a lot of mental issues that I didn't deal with until after I stopped drinking.
The funny thing was I had access to damn near any kind of drug you can think of. I won't write a resume of the ones I did do but they were pretty tame.
My thought at the time was I knew I was going to enjoy them a lot. I also knew I was a bit impulsive and compulsive. So I knew if I tried a line of coke that I was going to like it and want to do it all the time. So like with a lot of things I just passed.
So I don't know if drinking was a problem for me even though I did it every day and large amounts of it.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Dainbramadge I'm surprised this post is still getting comments lol but I'm glad you stopped by 🤙 even if you might not classify as an alcoholic (I'm not saying you do or don't), I think alcohol can easily be considered a problem once it interferes with anything in your life. If it's caused you any further problems then yes, I'd say it's safe to call it a problem. But I get you. I stayed away from the hard stuff when I was younger because I didn't wanna get stuck on it either. But the older I got, the less I cared & I started trying more. I wouldn't say I was addicted to any of them.. but I'd say I had a drug problem. I probably still have a problem with substance abuse in general even though it's only weed & alcohol. Because I notice at times of my life if I drink more, I smoke less. When I smoke more, I drink less. But there's always [i]something[/i] keeping me from being fully sober.. even if it's not the bad stuff anymore

SW-User

I drank heavily for 15 years, dabbled with meth and ecstasy around friends. I was convicted of manslaughter when I drove drunk and my little nephew was killed that night when I rolled my truck. I didn’t learn my lesson and I was out on a scram device that measures alcohol from my ankle . I do drink and smoke a little weed here and there..

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@SW-User dude that hurt to read 🥺 I can't imagine. I don't tell people here about my legal troubles.. but I'm currently facing multiple felonies from shit that happened in the past & I feel you. I'm so sorry that it cost you someones life in the process

Grateful4you · M

Due to an injury I sustained at the hospital I worked I've been on pain meds. (Hydrocodone) for years so I am totally habituated NOT addicted, there is a big difference. I will probably be on this med. the rest of my life. I have a titanium rod in my spine.

The meds. at least give me a modicum of quality of life. The meds. don't take all the pain away just dulls it.

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Grateful4you · M

@DarkHeaven Exactly right Just like the song.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Grateful4you being on meds because you have to is very different than doing it because you want to & I feel for you 🙏 it's not easy regardless but at least youve been able to find something to get you through.

Grateful4you · M

@ChiefWalksWith40oz Thank you for understanding Chief.🐱

YoungPoet345 · 26-30, F

So sorry for what you went through but glad you got clean. I have never done drugs. The most I’ve done which was recent, at 25, is drink most of a 5% alcoholic beverage. And not so sure yet how I feel on it. The first time I tried it, I liked it. The second time it just seemed to give me a bad headache but maybe that’s why people don’t drink alone. No idea on it. That’s the total of my experiences. Lol. I am pretty much a nerd who has stayed away from those things by choice and lack of interest. Though my current significant other is a pretty strong hit of dopamine. Addictive for sure.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@YoungPoet345 Honestly what I've found lately with drinking, is sometimes I'm on the mood for it & when I am, it's all smooth. But sometimes I'm not in the mood for it even when I think I am, & it just makes me feel so bleh. That's when I stop after one or two.
I'm glad you've stayed away from everything for the most part though 👌 as cool as everyone makes it sound, it's all just escapes really

MURD3RM0NK3Y · 26-30, M

I've done all the drugs homie. I started smoking weed when I was 16-17 and drinking too. When I graduated high school that's when the real shit started. I did coke and molly like every weekend when I was 19. I did Xanax too. But my main addiction was the pain killers. Oxycodone, Opanas. Fentanyl. But mainly Opanas. That was like legal heroin in pill form. Bruh I used to love them shits. I was a pill head for sure. I remember snorting a 40mg Opana and being knocked out for like 6 hours straight and waking up in my couch still fucked up, driving to work and nodding off and then just busting my ass the whole night. Coming home and getting high again. That was like 2-3 years ago though and I did a lot more other shit before that but yeah I used to drink and drive a lot and I got DUIs then I went to jail that was like around 2014 when I got my first DUI and I got another one in 2018 but didn't get sentenced for it till 2019 went to jail in September 2019 and got out in March 2020 when covid started. So it's been a ride but I've been clean from all drugs except the drinking but I don't drink and drive anymore cuz I learned my lesson I'm not going back to jail again hell nah fuck that shit. I OD a couple times too when I was doing fentanyl but yeah like I said I don't do that shit no more because it's not good for me.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@MURD3RM0NK3Y that's wild man but I feel you. I first tried coke on my 18th birthday & kinda just kept goin onto other shit after that. Before that it was all pills, & the basic stuff. I definitely had a lot of experience drinking & driving & of course other shit. Oddly enough, that's how I learned how to drive as a teen. Nobody would teach me & I wanted to learn so I stole cars with my friends & would drive them while we drank & smoked. Normally driving made me nervous but once I drank I was confident. Kinda fucked up but yeah that's how I learned. I don't like talking about my legal issues but I've been caught up a few times on the same shit. It sucks.
Its dope you started getting off the shits though man honestly most of it gets less fun the longer you stay away.

Nebula · 41-45, F

Ive done drugs, never turned into a problem luckily. Ive lost a lot of good people to drugs ☹

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Nebula · 41-45, F

@ChiefWalksWith40oz yeah, luckily I got pregnant and.changed my evil ways, hahaha. Besides weed.

Nebula · 41-45, F

@ChiefWalksWith40oz Im glad ypu overcame that stuff

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Nebula thank you 😌 & whaaaa' weed isn't part of "evil ways" 😁 we support that these days 🤙🤙 lol

SW-User

I started drinking when I was 10-11, and started smoking weed at 12-13..
Never tried anything else, I had a friend overdose when I was 14-15, several other "friends" almost die or get arrested for drugs. Now I hate drugs (hard drugs, not weed), I don't trust people on it.

"I didn't care about anything & the way I saw life was "f*ck it, if I die then at least I don't have to be here anymore"."

I had this same mindset when I started heavy drinking and partying at 22. But I was never truly addicted, I just used it as an escape..

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@SW-User I was a lot like you. Had the same attitude about it. Even after watching friends get buried & seeing their families mourn. I knew I did the same drugs with them & I still didn't stop. It took me a while longer to get tired of it. I also think I was never truly addicted.. I was addicted to running away. Still kinda am really.
I'm happy you made it out

Carissimi · 70-79, F

I’m so glad you got off that stuff, and put your life back together. That’s no easy thing, so I applaud you.

No, I’ve never taken anything that a doctor didn’t prescribe, or what you can buy at the pharmacy. I’ve never had weed, as you call it. It never appealed to me, even in my darkest hours when I didn’t want to go on. I suppose I was just born with a natural aversion to that stuff, which is a good thing.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Carissimi it's definitely a good thing 🙏 I wish I was never tempted by shit like that. I had a brother my age who never touched any drugs or alcohol & I always thought it was funny how opposite we were. But I respected it nonetheless & he never judged me either.
& Thank you 🤗

Carissimi · 70-79, F

Your brother sounds like a good guy. Be well. 🙏 @ChiefWalksWith40oz

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Carissimi he's one of the reasons I'm still here 🙏 literally. He saved my life once when I got alcohol poisoning & he never told on me for it either. I felt so guilty for doing that to him

Hassan · 22-25, M

Yes. I started smoking weed on 17 and escalated to pills. I got addicted to mdma and tramadol. It's opiate in a form of pills. I think in America you've something similar to it called oxytocin. Now I'm close to 2 years sober. I stopped to get a decent education and change my life. I still want to try lsd, mushrooms and dmt,but not now. Have you tried any of these strong psychedelics

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Hassan we have tramadol here in America too. I did a shitload of them back in high school. But hey that's badass you've been sober this long 🙏 quite an accomplishment. Especially because you put yourself first.
But I haven't tried LSD or DMT.. definitely done shrooms on multiple occasions though. I've ate half an ounce at once before. I think psychedelics are a good thing & I only use them if I'm going through something & I need answers within myself

Hassan · 22-25, M

@ChiefWalksWith40oz thank you 🙌 yes that's what I'm planning to do. When i get better I'll do them. I still didn't come far with introspection, i need to finish few things and try em

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Hassan my best advice is don't do them if you have any doubts or if you're nervous about anything, anxious, paranoid, any of that. Because it can amplify & get scary. It's best to be in the most comfortable environment with a stable mind.

DragonFruit · 61-69, M

When I was in college, I started drinking heavily and getting high on a couple of different drugs. After dropping out a couple of times, I graduated and went to law school.
I learned that you can lose your license to practice law if caught with other drugs, but not with alcohol.
I stopped using weed and hallucinogens, and focused on drinking when I wasn’t working.
I’m now retired, and I’m still an alcoholic, but haven’t used weed or any illegal drugs in years.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@DragonFruit well hey it's better than being stuck on all kinds of stuff. But I feel ya man, it's not easy no matter what you're addicted to. I hope you're doing okay with it though 👌

Scribbles · 36-40, F

I had an alcohol problem for a period of time (I started drinking heavily around 14) before I decided to sober up years later. I had access to some seriously addictive pain killers, coke and weed through a crowd of friends and boyfriend for a time, but I never did more then smoke weed a few times. I didn't like what drug using and drug dealing did to those friends, it was just painful to see...and I wanted to be free from that I guess, idk. Sometimes, I feel like a coward for leaving some people behind...but sometimes you got to make a clean break when the opportunity strikes, and just keep your own life straight instead of getting involved in everything going on. idk. I don't even dare to look any of those people up on Facebook.

I think it's incredibly difficult to break free from all that. I'm happy to hear you survived that night and were able to make a break from repeating that night . I hope at least a few of my friends were able to make a break from harder drugs as well. :/

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Scribbles Its a good thing you had the right mindset to keep you away from that. Since I started so young, I didn't have friends at the time who did it too. I was the one introducing it to people but as I got older I did watch certain friends go too far. End up in hospitals, or even dead. It's sad.
You're not a coward for leaving anybody behind. The energy we surround ourselves with controls our life & you had to exclude that energy. It's not wrong to put yourself first

Ryannnnnn · 31-35, M

Yeah I smoked weed at 14, started properly at 16 after drinking, then got into pills and MDMA, then LSD, ketamine, DMT (pretty awesome though tbf). I was really psychologically addicted to just getting high though and escaping my problems as I have trauma from my childhood. I feel like it stunted my development as a person, I felt like I was a few years behind but I caught up.

I got a fresh start when I moved to another part of the country and enjoyed sobriety and I've never wanted to do stuff like that again. I smoked weed still for a bit but I stopped at like 25.

I have a couple friends who had a rough time though, one ended up on heroin and still struggles with that, another nearly died from cocaine induced organ damage and had some psychological issues because of it. It's weird when you stop because sobriety seems so strange that it's like a new high haha.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Ryannnnnn I always wanted to try dmt & honestly I still might one day. Closest I've been was eating 14 grams of shrooms which is a half ounce 🤣 that was a year & a half ago.
I know what you mean about feeling behind. I even know what you mean about sobriety feeling like a new high 😂 a year ago I decided not to smoke weed before work, & I went the whole day sober. Afterwards I was like "woah I had this energy all day.. I was so talkative it was great. I need to do this more often" & my ex was like "what? Be sober?" & I was like damn 😶 I legit just got excited about feeling sober 😅 but ever since then, smoking is less important than it used to be. If I go without it, it never bothers me anymore.

Ita dope you were able to stop all of that. I'm actually glad to see how many people here have had that strength. & It's sad seeing friends go down like that.. I still gotta watch it

Onestarlitnight

I've smoked weed since 13 . Started drinking at 15..
I'm a recovering alcoholic 32 years sober..
In my mid twenties i had a pretty serious coke habit.. I've probably tried just about every drug you can think of.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Onestarlitnight wow man, respect. That's pretty young. I don't find a lot of people who started as young as us. But I'm in the same boat. I can speak on a lot because there's not much I haven't done

Onestarlitnight

@ChiefWalksWith40oz
Those days are long behind me now but I would have been better off if i stopped sooner..
If you're into it now, maybe think about letting it go.. You're still a young guy and you don't have to make the same mistakes i did..
Back in the day we didn't have this kind of space to talk about options but i wish we did.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Onestarlitnight Yeah it's crazy how different drug culture is now compared to back then. Before I had to roam the streets dealing with shady people. Nowadays you can find drugs by messaging someone on Snapchat & meeting at burger king 😂
But I only smoke weed & drink now. I don't do the other shit I used to

Stark

How do you feel about it all now ?

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ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Stark Its a saying that fits me 😂 but I do say it while laughing so they know I'm not being all hypocritical fr lol. Just looking out. But thanks 😌 I already get to be a cool uncle because some of my lil siblings are having babies now

Stark

@ChiefWalksWith40oz omg that’s fucking scary 😦 but exciting on the uncle part. I always wanted a role like that because you get to be the cool one hanging out and spoiling and then give the kid back. It’s nice (:

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Stark Oh for sure 😂 I can't wait to spoil both my neices lol I kinda hope one of them is into shoes so I could buy those all the time 😅

RosaMarie · 41-45, F

Yes. I'm out of drugs. It's a problem.

Viper · M

I've never had a "drug" problem but that hasn't stopped me from having addiction issues.

Based on family history (not parents) I realized I'm likely to have addiction issues and I have had them and lucky I saw the negative effect had on my older neighbors and I stayed away from them.

But I've still had addicted issues with carbs, pasta and flavored vitamins when they're near where I eat, they're going to be gone lol

So I've learned my best bet is to not get them to start with... I don't have to buy them, or bring them into the house, and I don't have to open them... but once they're open in my house, they're going quick... 😥

I've also learned staying busy, physically active and having someone to talk to, are extremely extremely important.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Viper addiction is addiction in any form.. especially when it's harmful to your life. & Many of us just naturally have addictive type personalities where we're prone to it. Knowing you've gone too far & being able to keep yourself from getting there regularly is an underrated skill. Props 🙏

itsok · 31-35, F

Thank you for writing this.
It sounds very familiar.
I started smoking weed at 12, drinking soon after that, and was kicked out and homeless in my teens, before a suicide attempt that led to getting help.

I’m glad you’re here 🤗

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@itsok damn & I never would've guessed being how funny you always are. But I suppose people say the same thing about me. So I feel you for sure 🥺 I didn't admit when I tried to end it. I let everyone think it was an accident & carried on. It took a long time before I was able to talk about things as openly as I do now.

& Thank you I'm glad I got to meet you 🤗

Pfuzylogic · M

This would be back in 1979 when I was 20 when I quit. I sold coke and had done quit a few different types of drugs like Acid, PCP/Angeldust, snorted and sold cocaine before crack existed.
I got a waiver in the Navy and they gave me a shot at Nuclear power. I failed because the strip joints had all the beer you wanted for $5 and it was before a “watch” I had on my post.
Drank for a little more but I eventually stopped after getting married.
The U.S. Navy was the turning point.

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Pfuzylogic · M

@ChiefWalksWith40oz
I did need the structure.
I passed the ASVAB and the nuclear power test with a really high score so I was fortunate that they wanted me.
The Navy most definitely had structure with boundaries defined by the UCMJ.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Pfuzylogic very cool. I looked into military recently out of curiosity & I don't think any branch at all would accept me 😂 but maybe if I made the choice back then it could've stopped me from a lot 🤷 but oh well

Pfuzylogic · M

@ChiefWalksWith40oz
There are other organizations that could offer similar structure like the Peace Corps. Don’t give up!

Roadsterrider · 56-60, M

I had issues with alcohol, like your story, eventually I got sick of feeling like shit. Something had to change.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Roadsterrider I feel that of course. It's fun for the longest time til you realize how shitty it actually feels. I still drink but I don't like being drunk... Still kinda fuck that up sometimes though 😅

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alainc2490 · 31-35, M

I'm going through Heroin withdrawal myself. Drugs in the end lead you to a path of darkness and emptyness...

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@alainc2490 very true. I hope you start feeling better soon. There's people who care & I don't know you but I care too. Our past doesn't have to be something we're ashamed of. We can build from it too.
That's actually why I wrote this post 🤷

SW-User

Methamphetamine yes .. and alcohol .. ruined my life so far but I’m trying to stay clean and sober for my kid

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@SW-User I'm so proud of you 🖤

Starcrossed · 41-45, F

I have a cannabis dependency but I also have chronic pain from an accident 5 years ago, anxiety and C-PTSD so it's pretty much medicine anyway.

Did a whole mess of stuff in my early 20s but grew out of it. Well also my boyfriend assaulted me while on meth and I didnt want anything to do with being around it after that.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Starcrossed I might have a cannabis dependency as well. People say weeds not addictive but it certainly is. Just in a different ways it's mentally more than anything.
Traumatic experiences definitely help turn us off to certain things though. I'm sorry you went through that

Starcrossed · 41-45, F

@ChiefWalksWith40oz thanks. Was a long time and several shit therapists ago. Hit another real dark patch in 2021 before I started finding my way out of being 'stuck' in the fog that hung over most of my adulthood, then got a good therapist and its done wonders.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Starcrossed Im very happy for you 🤗 it doesn't happen overnight & our demons haunt us forever. When they catch up to us it can get ugly. I spent 2021 in a rough patch as well. I'm still dealing with the consequences now.

DarkHeaven ·

Not me, I’m too much of a control freak but I had an ex that had many demons… alcoholism and drug addiction among them. I loved her so much but she was a mess.

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ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@DarkHeaven that was deep 🥺 you made my eyes water. Not all of us make it out.. I haven't lost a lover, but many friends. Watching their families at their funerals felt so guilty to me because I knew I did the same shit that put them there

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ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@DarkHeaven you be safe as well 🖤

Jokekilla · 26-30, M

i would take pain meds just cause to make me feel nothing. But i stopped that real quick when i became a paramedic, it changed my mentality.

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Jokekilla · 26-30, M

@ChiefWalksWith40oz ehh well, i had to quit being a paramedic. That shit aint no joke, it took a emotional, mental, and physical toll on me

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Jokekilla that's definitely understandable. I don't imagine it would be easy seeing some things & it's a high stress job. Very high responsibility. I don't think I'd be fit for a job like that myself. How you doing with all that now?

Jokekilla · 26-30, M

@ChiefWalksWith40oz well, i didn't want to be a first responder, i wanted to do forensics. So figure out what happened, and why it happened.

deadteddy · 26-30, F

what kinda drugs?

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ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@deadteddy any kind 😂

Gangstress · 41-45, F

Weed helps my sporadic thoughts if honest. But alcohol is my arch nemesis 😑 it calls me back every time. I need to alleviate this problem

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Gangstress · 41-45, F

@ChiefWalksWith40oz honestly same here! I hope we both get there eventually

ChipmunkErnie · 70-79, M

The most destructive drug known to man -- alcohol. Finally gave it up almost 10 years ago.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@ChipmunkErnie congrats man. I've wondered if I should quit too. I don't know if that's realistic though 😂 I mean I know it is but yeah.. y'know

ChipmunkErnie · 70-79, M

@ChiefWalksWith40oz I tried on and off for years, then somehow, one day, I just said to myself I wouldn't buy and more, and if I didn't buy it I couldn't drink it, and I've managed to keep that up for years now.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@ChipmunkErnie that's cool. Maybe I'll get there one day. I quit for two years once from age 14-16. & I've had times I quit for a month or so. I suppose all it takes is the day you just don't look back

GBPackersFan · 41-45, M

All my friends and I did was play/ watch sports and drink 🍺 as I got older I limit my alcohol consumption to weekends only

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@GBPackersFan nice. I limit my consumption to weekends now too. If I have a beer otherwise it's usually one or two

Changeisgonnacome · 61-69, F

Alcohol made my entire family stupid and violent. I hate getting beat up, and I don't like drink

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Changeisgonnacome I am sorry 😔 unstable people should not be allowed near alcohol

Changeisgonnacome · 61-69, F

@ChiefWalksWith40oz the warnings don't seem to work. Something is definitely off

Havesomefun2 · 56-60, M

I grew a lot never used it

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ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Havesomefun2 jeez man, I hate rats but can't escape that shit when you're in that world sometimes y'know. If it weren't him it would probably be someone else

Havesomefun2 · 56-60, M

@ChiefWalksWith40oz well he did get banged up the same prison lol

Unlearn · 41-45, M

Only addiction I had was for cigarettes. I have quit it for over 3 months now. Never did drugs...

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Unlearn 3 months is quite a big deal when you've smoked long enough. Congrats man 🙌

SumKindaMunster · 51-55, M

No, I got high, came down, got sober and then carried on with my day, no problem.

cycleman · 61-69, M

Nicotine, hard drug to stop too.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@cycleman definitely. Ironically though I quit nicotine when I was 19. Probably the first thing I ever quit 😅

WhisperingAngel · F

No to drugs and people

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@WhisperingAngel solid philosophy 🤙

WhisperingAngel · F

@ChiefWalksWith40oz Solid words to live by.

MsAnnThropy

No. I tried them though.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@MsAnnThropy well at least you know they're not for you 👌

wildbill83 · 36-40, M

iamonfire696 · 41-45, F

Thanks for sharing this. I have only tried weed a few times before it was legal. I take some capsules and edibles for pain.

I have had family members that have ruined their life over addiction so I have no interest

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iamonfire696 · 41-45, F

@ChiefWalksWith40oz yes I use the ones that have more CBD in them. The first time I ate a whole gummy the room was spinning for a few hours lol

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@iamonfire696 lol what a scary feeling 😅 I hate it when you don't wanna be high but you can't stop it either. It's weird. I've never felt that way with weed but with other drugs definitely

iamonfire696 · 41-45, F

@ChiefWalksWith40oz I have no desire to try any other drugs. I have seen them ruin so many lives.

MonaReeves86 · 36-40, F

No I don’t do drugs the only drugs I do are my medications and I don’t want them

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@MonaReeves86 I feel you 😔

LordShadowfire · M

I mostly ever did weed. I'm not even that fond of being drunk.

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@LordShadowfire relatable 😂 weeds definitely better. & I find that I don't really like being drunk anymore either. I'd rather just have a good buzz

Lilnonames · F

I rarely drink never did or do drugs I don't even like my meds but must to stay alive

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Lilnonames very understandable 🖤

SW-User

Drugs? Me? Never 😌

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ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@SW-User why you on that fake shit foo we know you wit it 😂

SW-User

@ChiefWalksWith40oz Idk what you mean 😇

Smoking this rn 😅

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@SW-User oh nice 😌 I got two strains of wax rn. Bangers & Mac along with Strawberry Lemonade 👌

Lilnonames · F

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ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Lilnonames I was listening to this when you commented it earlier but I forgot to react 😮 I played it while I replied to others so I got carried away. Such an awesome song though thank you. I'll add it to my playlist

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ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@BlueGreenGrey I understand addiction but not entirely. I don't think anyone fully understands it though. People get addicted for a variety of reasons. It all depends on genetics, history, how they grew up, what's normal to them, etc. For somebody like you I'd say you're lucky that you've never had to understand it

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