5 months down the drain.Just ended things with my boyfriend and tbh im sad but relieved. Idk im like confused. Idk i miss him dearly. He was literally the only person i went to for everything... i miss his voice.š¢ P.S. - we got back together YAY!!!
Note to self never go into a xxx video store aloneAlmost got SA'd until another gentleman saw intervened which i was thankful for. I literally told the guy to leave me alone and he literally kept following me and kept touching me after i backed away.... Idk how woman do it. Im sure this is how... See More Ā»
Iām kinda like worriedI started talking to a guy literally like a week and now heās getting my name tattooed on himself. Like bro what if we break up šš I told him to get whatever he wants besides my name and he insisted on getting my name. šš now I feel obligated to... See More Ā»
Damn I was gonna put Nair on my āprivateā areaBut I see it cause burns and irritation :( Iām tired of trimming š
Bro, not gonna lie, being in pharmacy school has made me so damn emotionalLike when I see a kid with a fever I wanna cry and help out as much as I can, when a grandpa or grandma hurt their wrist I just rub biofreeze and give them some Tylenol cause I know they have renal failure (ibuprofen is bad). Like ššš I wanna help... See More Ā»
I have imposter syndrome and it freaking sucks š„¹š„¹šLike Iām gonna be a real doctor of pharmacy and I feel like Iām stupid and donāt deserve it. I feel stupid and useless.
My family keeps pressuring me to go to churchBut everytime they do that I get more and more distant and it makes me feel āunworthyā which makes me suicidalā¦š I just wish theyād stop
I moved to a new city. About 9 hours away from my familyTo start my doctorates program in pharmacyā¦ and now more than ever I wanna commit sui****. The loneliness, feeling trapped, and thinking if this was the right decision is all so overwhelming šš¢. Ugh!
Do you think God will forgive me if I āoffedā myself?Like he knows my circumstancesā¦he knows Iām not strong enough anymore. Iāve tried to move on with life, by getting my doctorates but that mean literally nothing too meā¦my life means nothing. Iām miserable and just wanna be free from so much pain and... See More Ā»
I had a three-some with some coupleAnd that was the most fun Iāve had in the longest of times š©. They both wanted me and treated me like their own. š„ŗ it made me feel so special and loved in a way.
What sucks about being suicidalā¦Is playing various amount of scenarios in your head of how youāre going to āend itā. I would definitely want something quick, not painful, and something where my parents can still see meā¦ thatās why I struggle so much.
