My family keeps pressuring me to go to churchBut everytime they do that I get more and more distant and it makes me feel “unworthy” which makes me suicidal…😔 I just wish they’d stop
I moved to a new city. About 9 hours away from my familyTo start my doctorates program in pharmacy… and now more than ever I wanna commit sui****. The loneliness, feeling trapped, and thinking if this was the right decision is all so overwhelming 😓😢. Ugh!
Do you think God will forgive me if I “offed” myself?Like he knows my circumstances…he knows I’m not strong enough anymore. I’ve tried to move on with life, by getting my doctorates but that mean literally nothing too me…my life means nothing. I’m miserable and just wanna be free from so much pain and... See More »
I had a three-some with some coupleAnd that was the most fun I’ve had in the longest of times 😩. They both wanted me and treated me like their own. 🥺 it made me feel so special and loved in a way.
What sucks about being suicidal…Is playing various amount of scenarios in your head of how you’re going to “end it”. I would definitely want something quick, not painful, and something where my parents can still see me… that’s why I struggle so much.
Ugh I hate coming to the doctorsThey never could find my vein and they poke me multiple times and phish 🥺😢
I got accepted into pharmacy school to get my doctorates…But I’m not happy. I feel like I’m not worthy or actually too stupid. 😞😢
I had a dream that I kissed a guy in public but very subtleCause the lights were dark. And I just see the lights turn on and a hear a huge announcement to congratulate me cause I found a boyfriend. Idk if it’s my sub conscious forcing me to come out but that was not cool brain!!!!! I’m not ready 😫
Alright, it’s dark and I dropped something so I bent overAnd you happen to bump into me 😏 do we shag?
