Does anyone else fear getting better?

@Coralmist Oh dear. I'm sure you don't deserve to feel this way.

However, I can understand what you are saying

@itsok I get it. We tend to cling to the familiar, even if it's not pleasant or healthy

@thepeculiarpanda Oh dear! I can actually understand that.

@TexasDude It is exhausting and I wish I could take a break from it all haha.

@thepeculiarpanda I understand

@AJ023 I feel ya.

@YoMomma Yeah I can be shy. I'm often the really quiet one at a party or something. If you get me going, I can open up almost too much lol but that's not often. I can even have trouble talking to friends and family about some things. It's easier in places like this to open up, or even just in text form in general.

However, I think I really do fear growth a bit because I think I'm realizing how I sort of use my issues as a shield to not move forward in life...pursue dreams, get better jobs, or whatever. Basically I think, on some level, I hide from responsibility and adulting. I mean I can function but life could be more than this

@TexasDude did you have overbearing parents? I think when kids aren't raised with support and appreciation they tend to be closed off and shy.. unlike other kids who are extraverted? Because they are allowed?

@YoMomma No not really. Mom and I are really close. Dad was cool too, when he was around. I suppose I was sheltered in many ways though.

@tenente Sadly, that makes sense