I move in on MondayAn update on my living situation. When I came on here I was homeless but in 2 days I will be moving in to my own apartment!
Can someone please explain this to meSo how come my hallucinations can grab, bite, hit, hold me down but I can't attack them back?
I used to be very beautiful . It is odd to me now looking back...... I thought I was a hideous beast way to ugly to be beautiful but look at me.... I was so wrong!
988 Do you know? . Did you know you can call or text 988 at anytime for any reason and a kind caring person will talk to you about anything you need. I get scared a lot and confused....... These are my new go to guys! They don't judge and you are never a bother to...See More »
A Place For People Like MeThere needs to be a place for people like me to go when we are not suicidal but still not okay. A place with group therapy, food, others like me... A place to rest and be safe
I still feel terribleI had my tonsils removed and tubes in my ears this past Tuesday.., I would not wish this on my worst enemy
I'm in the hospitalSo yesterday morning I had my tonsils removed and tubes put in my ears. I'm 48 so it is much harder on a grown up than a child. I'm in so much pain. I can barely stand it. I feel like such a wimp.
Intensive Outpatient TherapyFor those of you concerned about me I am going to The Critical Stabilization Unit until Tuesday morning. Tuesday I am having surgery to help my sleep apnea. Most of my problems stem from lack of sleep so hopefully I will be able to sleep soon. I...See More »
I'm not sure what happens next.Friday night into Saturday morning 2am.... I took almost 80 pills made up of muscle relaxers, sleep meds and blood pressure meds..... I texted my husband to tell him goodbye and he called 911 to get me help. I fought with the police when they...See More »
When Demons ComeI can't sleep. I'm only averaging 2 to 3 hours a night. I get jolted awake terrified hearing my name being yelled or I wake yelling his name. This is dangerous for me because lack of sleep causes mania and mania activates my psychosis which awakens...See More »
I think I am... At least I hope so.I'm ready to stand on my own to feet. I feel like a fawn with wabbling legs that may tangle and trip me as I try to walk
To play or not to playSo when husband and I were together I like wanted play time 24/7 but he was like nope. Guys, isn't it good think for your wife to want to play
The same thing every time!Why can't taking my meds be easy? Why the war in my head? I fuc***g need my meds
So, What's up with God?I'm a Christian and I love Jesus. I'm just so confused right now. Where is God when all hell brakes loose? Does he just choose this person to heal and that one to suffer? Please don't say if you have the faith of a mustard seed... Or pray Harder but...See More »
Dare I DreamSo, I love cooking and baking and serving dinner. Wouldn't it be fun to have a male companion to cook with, serve a lovely meal, us cleaning together and then dancing across the clean floor , of course!
I applied for an apartment today!There are 4 people a head of me and 4 apartments open now so it won't take long for me to get my own place.
What's the hungriest you've been?We didn't eat dinner the night before and Doordashed until 2 am the next day before a burrito from Taco Bell.
The Truth of the Matter isI'm Schizophrenic, Bipolar, PTSD and battling Anxiety and Depression. Life is hard. Remembering to eat, sleep, take my meds is hard. You guys are the highlight of my day!
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