i dont know what to do anymore

You are 14 but your SW profile says 22-25?

You are too young to be feeling like this. Add maybe 70 years and it would be understandable.

You are a child. Figuring out life as you grow up is just part of the process we all go through. It is intensely personal to you, of course, because it's what you're living through, but we have all been there.

The adults in your life — parents, teachers, whomever — are supposed to help guide you through this period. Unfortunately, it's all too common for our adults to be shit at their jobs and force us to figure it out on our own, to make our own mistakes that might turn out catastrophically.

Just realize that, although it may not seem like it now, things get better. You will figure things out, which will introduce you to new problems that you'll have to figure out. That's just life. It's hard and it's painful and it seems like there is nothing else, but life is also full of wonder and joy. You just need to figure out how to find it within yourself.

So, tell your teacher. If your parents find out, unless they're monsters, all they will want to do is help you get through this period. So you might really want to talk to them, too.

Do you go to church or follow a religion? Talk to a religious leader if you do. Aren’t they not allowed to talk to anyone what you discuss with them or is that only Catholic confession? I’m not religious by any stretch. I’m just making a suggestion that no one else has made that might help.

Life is a struggle from the time you begin your preteens until you retire, unfortunately. Have you ever heard the term about not wanting to adult? You shouldn’t have to until you’re a high school junior deciding on colleges. Then as a senior plotting how to pay for it all with parents help, etc. Then graduation and turning 18. Don’t over try to adult if you are so young. In other words, try not to grow up so fast if you don’t have to. Talk to that religious leader. Talk to that favorite teacher. Ask them to not talk to your parents at this time. You need their confidence so you can open up to them. If they promise, proceed. If they can’t then back away. Good Luck! 🍀

It is hard being 14, life gets better so just hang on. Exercise for at least 20 minutes everyday helps for depression. So do antidepressants. Stay away from drugs and alcohol. find someone to talk to like a school counselor, or suicide hotline or warm line on the phone. Find some fun books to read for your age. Ask the librarian. Ask your parents to join a sport or a class like dance, soccer, art, swimming, iceskating, ski team, choir, etc. Rec classes are cheap and they have scholarships for single parents. (I read books for hrs every day when I was a child, I also walked in nature, sang in choir, danced ballet, read the Bible, and talked to friends, it all helped)

I think you should tell your Teacher. And if they tell your parents. Yes it might make things complicated but adults should react when a child is in danger.

Hi, you really need to start communicating with as many others as possible. Whatever the result, surely nothing is worse than just carrying on alone and in silence. You may well be surprised by the response of others, there really is a lot of untapped compassion and empathy in so many mind/hearts.

At your age you haven't reached the end of anything, certainly not of the capacity and the possibility of positive change and transformation. You are here to be with others, to share, to inter-act, to love, to care. Please be strong and believe in yourself and your own potential for good.

Sincerely, all the best.

Your teacher would be legally obliged to report it to your parents, the school head and the counsellor if the school has one.

If there is a school counsellor, that would be the best person to talk to.

What kinds of self harm are you doing?
How do you feel just before you do it?
What thoughts, experiences or events trigger those feelings?

You can message me if you like.
I can't guarantee to be able to help with something as deep as SH,
but I can listen to what's going on in your life generally if you need to talk about it.

I've been in your shoes before. I just relied on strangers on the internet for support since I really didn't have a support system at home.

Tell your gp, he can’t legally discuss it with your parents