i dont know what to do anymore

im 14 and hopless. i really dont know what to do anymore with my life, ive never felt so defeated in my entire life. i really need someones help but i dont want to bother or annoy anyone. i have been sh for a while now and i cant stop. i really dont want anyone to find out, but deep inside i want someone to notice so that they can know how much im struggling. i want to tell my teacher, but i dont know if i can trust that she wont tell my parents, cause i know ill get into so much trouble if my parents find out. ive really reached the end of everything. i dont even know why im still here and i lowkey just make so many peoples lifes worse. i cant do this anymore i really cant.

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LuciferMorningstar · 56-60, M

Do you go to church or follow a religion? Talk to a religious leader if you do. Aren’t they not allowed to talk to anyone what you discuss with them or is that only Catholic confession? I’m not religious by any stretch. I’m just making a suggestion that no one else has made that might help.

Life is a struggle from the time you begin your preteens until you retire, unfortunately. Have you ever heard the term about not wanting to adult? You shouldn’t have to until you’re a high school junior deciding on colleges. Then as a senior plotting how to pay for it all with parents help, etc. Then graduation and turning 18. Don’t over try to adult if you are so young. In other words, try not to grow up so fast if you don’t have to. Talk to that religious leader. Talk to that favorite teacher. Ask them to not talk to your parents at this time. You need their confidence so you can open up to them. If they promise, proceed. If they can’t then back away. Good Luck! 🍀

LileLala · 16-17

@LuciferMorningstar i am actually Christian💛 i am slowly healing as we speak. thank you so much!! your comment made me sob to know that someone actually cares</33 LIFE IS WORTH LIVING FOR(im glad that i know that now) i also have got back my relationship with the Lord even tho its not easy. this made me open my eyes on how i shouldnt rush to grow, i want you to know that your message has helped some random person on the planet. your so sweet aswell😭😭 i also have stopped sh for a while now and hoping forever my scars are slowly disappearing. oh and yes to answer your question i do go to Youth and it has helped me get out of the hole i was drowning in for so long it feels so good to know that i can talk in past tense about it. I LOVE YAA</33