WillaKissing · 56-60, M
I had a son and daughter and lost my son to suicide when he was 21 years old in the Army. I had the Army as a career so that truly messed me up for a long while and I am still not and will never be over it.
But, Yes, I wished I had at least four children. My Ex-wife promised me four getting married, but she also promised love and fidelity and I did not get that either.
But I feel blessed I still have my daughter! And I could never replace my son, those are solid givens.
But, Yes, I wished I had at least four children. My Ex-wife promised me four getting married, but she also promised love and fidelity and I did not get that either.
But I feel blessed I still have my daughter! And I could never replace my son, those are solid givens.
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WillaKissing · 56-60, M
@WowwGirl Thank you My sweet friend, God got me through it and has taught me how to cope with it.
WowwGirl · 36-40, F
@WillaKissing I can't apologize enough or say how strong you are
WillaKissing · 56-60, M
@WowwGirl Ah, thank you. God made me extremely strong in heart, mind, and body. And sometimes I ask why but then defer to his infinite knowledge.
Three days post my son's death I gave his Eulogy in a church with 300+ guests and his entire Army unit from the Colonel down, met and shook all hands and after everyone left, I kissed my son and collapse prayed and went with my daughter his sister to eat dinner with my son's race car group at my son's favorite restaurant. Then drove home for two and a half hours with an Amish friend that came with me to the funeral home. The next day that Amish friend came to my home and we worked on the house I started to build for myself. I had to stop and let the Amish friend and his son to finish the day without me.
My son's wishes in his exit letter were to be cremated and to have his ashes spread on a hill like I want done with mine on the last farm I will ever own. Anyways the ex-wife could not make herself to go to that funeral home to pick his ashes up, so a week later I drove the two and a half hours to pick my son up and take him on his last ride with dear Ole Dad. And I drove with him over to my daughter that was at her horse barn where she had her horses boarded and handed Joey over to her for her last ride with Joey back to the mother's house. Visited and drove home alone crying and screaming and here I sit today type and crying and remembering all the good and love my son had in him that the world stole from us all.
Thank you deeply.
Three days post my son's death I gave his Eulogy in a church with 300+ guests and his entire Army unit from the Colonel down, met and shook all hands and after everyone left, I kissed my son and collapse prayed and went with my daughter his sister to eat dinner with my son's race car group at my son's favorite restaurant. Then drove home for two and a half hours with an Amish friend that came with me to the funeral home. The next day that Amish friend came to my home and we worked on the house I started to build for myself. I had to stop and let the Amish friend and his son to finish the day without me.
My son's wishes in his exit letter were to be cremated and to have his ashes spread on a hill like I want done with mine on the last farm I will ever own. Anyways the ex-wife could not make herself to go to that funeral home to pick his ashes up, so a week later I drove the two and a half hours to pick my son up and take him on his last ride with dear Ole Dad. And I drove with him over to my daughter that was at her horse barn where she had her horses boarded and handed Joey over to her for her last ride with Joey back to the mother's house. Visited and drove home alone crying and screaming and here I sit today type and crying and remembering all the good and love my son had in him that the world stole from us all.
Thank you deeply.

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I wanted 3-5, but I was blessed with fur kiddos instead. I was bitter about it for awhile, but I'm learning what a blessing my life is with or without children. I still get down on myself for not being able to have them, but that's ok.
Starcrossed · 41-45, F
I wish my one and only could have had a sibling, but my childbearing years after they were born were full of emotional upheaval and it wasn't a good time for me to bring another victim into my mess of a life/family. Now things are more stable for me, but I've decided that I'm too old.
22Michelle · 70-79, T
I have two daughters, and to be honest I was never really bothered if I had kids or not. However, holding my first daughter that first time was a life changing moment. Suddenly I realised that there was someone else far more important than me, someone I had to prioritise and look after. And when her sister came along there were two people that I had to prioritise and look after.
hartfire · 61-69
I was clucky in my 30s, at 68, am now immensely grateful that I couldn't carry to full term.
hunkalove · 70-79, M
Nope. Never. I can remember being very young and looking at my father and thinking if that's what it's like to be a father I never want to be one. And looking at my parents and thinking if that's what it's like to be married I never want to. And i haven't.
Cigarguy101 · M
I love the 3 kids we have now. But I don't think I could handle anymore. Our life is hard enough I couldn't imagine adding a new born into the mix
Punxi · F
My clocks ticking certainly..... Struggle is real in terms of this question, it's possibility and it's occupance in my future.
Matt85 · 36-40, M
Sometimes I wish I had a kid. Other time I just dang, that's a 20+ year commitment and the early years don't appeal to me really, changing nappies and all that 😵💫
I wanted two. I have one. Im grateful we're both alive.
PerfectionOfTheHeart · 46-50, F
Wanted ten at one point…I was young and naive…and drew a line at three. Definitely couldn’t have more at this point in life.
BiasForAction · M
I wanted more. She didn’t. She got her wish. And decades later I still feel that
WowwGirl · 36-40, F
@BiasForAction I get it
Prettybratbi1tch · 26-30, F
Maybe when I'm older I'll wish I did if I don't but not right now
WowwGirl · 36-40, F
@Prettybratbi1tch smart I didn't till mid 30s
faery · F
Nope
JimboSaturn · 56-60, M
Sometimes I wish I had another child. But not now lol
JimboSaturn · 56-60, M
@WowwGirl Some countries make you go there a couple of times, China was just once
WowwGirl · 36-40, F
@JimboSaturn I think I'm getting the last round of baby fever. 😆
WowwGirl · 36-40, F
@JimboSaturn interesting thank you so much was helpful
HumanEarth · F
Never wish if had more or less. Just happy for what life dealt me.
BrandNewMan · M
Good at 2 .. if we'd started earlier a 3rd would have been ok
MayorOfCrushtown · M
I have four……. I’m done. LOL
WowwGirl · 36-40, F
@MayorOfCrushtown understandable lol
ThePatientAnarchist · 61-69
Happy with my kids, wondering if we'll ever have grandchildren.
It is my GREATEST sadness in my life that I do NOT have even one living child! And unlikely will!
jackson55 · M
Have two girls. More than enough.
FloorGenAdm · 51-55, M
Yeah but I don't have the support.
tobynshorty · 51-55, F
Nope, once i made the decision I never turned back.
JustEd · 41-45, M
Sometimes. But three keeps things busy enough.
Wolffy · 56-60, M
Nope I'm glad I didn't have any
Keeper · M
I’m still waiting for a knock at the door.
Ferric67 · M
This world is a whirling cesspool with no end in sight
I’m glad that I haven’t brought another soul in to this growing fiasco
I’m glad that I haven’t brought another soul in to this growing fiasco
JackDaniels · 46-50, M
Have the right number
WowwGirl · 36-40, F
@JackDaniels 👍
DDaverde · 61-69, M
@JackDaniels nice title !!
3Dogmatic · 46-50, M
Nope. Two was plenty
Moneyonmymind · 31-35, M
No only because I’m not passionate about having any
LordBarbossa · 36-40, T
No
NinaTina · 26-30, F
No