I Will Let You DownThe one constant in my life. I will always let those around me down. When people need me the most, I won't be there. When people expect me to love them, I will be distant. When the world gives me a gift, I will walk away from it. I hold off hope...See More »
I Am Tired, So Very Tired15 hour work day. I am asleep on my feet. Now to go home to nothingness. Yay. !
Drag Race Fans, thoughts on All Stars 3, episode 5?**Spoilers may be talked about...you've been warned.
I Cant Be HappyWith out fail, something happens to ruin any and all joy in my life. I am a defective human being.
I Have Not Been Sleeping WellMaybe 2 hours a night. I am awash with a sense of complete dread. Like the world is going to end right then and there. I hate this feeling. Something bad is on the horizon. I know it is. There is a storm coming. Either another episode is brewing or...See More »
I Had The Weirdest DreamI was sitting in a white room near a desk. A lady came in and sat down across from me and asked me a bunch of questions I can't remember. I do remember feeling upset as she asked me every question though. When she was done she opened the door and let...See More »
How do you pronounce February?My office got into an argument on the proper way to say February. Half of us, myself included, pronounce the first 'r' the other half say that's wrong and the first 'r' is dropped. I know both ways are acceptable. How do you say it?
I Am Tired, So Very TiredI should sleep. I won't, but I should. Can't trust tomorrow enough to let it come without a fight.
I Am Trying To Be NormalI am trying. I am trying to go out and go on dates and be social. I know the risk. The slightest misstep and I will fall back into the void. I am trying not to. I got stood up today. My mind was on fire. I did not react. I wanted to react...to...See More »
I Can't Do ThisEvery year I think that it'll get better. Put the effort in to change and you'll be rewarded. Yet, it never does. It never changes. I always end up alone and with the saddest of realizations that I can't be around people because I'm jealous of how...See More »
I Feel AloneIn this head, there’s a storm But I fear less it’s form And more Of the damage It breathes.
I Am a MessI had an episode today. A wave of depression came over me and I had to do it. I've been doing so good lately and I screwed it all up. All I could think about while doing it was how I just want to be normal. I've envy people who just wake up and get...See More »
I Can't SleepGrand and overbearing sense of dread of what tomorrow will bring. Today was a good day, I don't want that to end. I may not be as lucky tomorrow.
I Am DefectiveI am a broken person. There is no single part of me that works the way it should. Lately I have been trying to find happiness and I thought it was working. Figured I could turn everything around by sparking change. I think I was delusional. Every day...See More »