Your trauma is valid

I find myself desperately wanting people to understand why i am the way i am .But unless they've been through it there is no way they can. Why i react differently to everyday stuff, why there are things i can't do . I also find many people don't want to know to the point of being angry. They ask questions then respond with damn why.diid you tell me that! People don't like having their rose.l colored glasses taken.off.
I was programmed to believe certain things as a very young child and deprogramming is really hard. Ptsd is not something i can control ,i don't wake thinking I'm going to go down memory lane today. It just happens, a smell a sound,a face or voice can send me back .One thing i am working on is understanding that these things happened to me but in truth they didn't, they happened to the child i was .I feel guilty for being affected by my past. As a child i never got help or even sympathy. It's the child that needs love and compassion, someone to save him . He will never rest until i can be the person he prayed would save him. Sorry for rambling.

This is such amazing positivity drop regarding living with trauma. Guilt and shame are a huge hurdle, and I think many who have gone through trauma try to hide or diminish their struggles, feeling “I should have known” “people won’t believe me speaking up NOW” and “was it really all that bad?”

Thank you for this

I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD in the past. I’m not sure If I’ve accepted it or believe it. Maybe I’m in denial.

I walk through life like a zombie. I can’t feel anything except anxiety and anger. I constantly think about the bad things that have happened to me and it stops me from living.

Thank you so much for posting this. I'm sorry you have had trauma and also have PTSD ... My sister also has PTSD like myself and she is afraid to get a therapist b/c she thinks they will not believe the amount of abuse and all the types of abuse her and I went through. I will show her this. I have had a few therapists... it seems they don't truly 'get' it sometimes, they nod and do not offer real tips for someone to heal from horrible acts. But my new one seems to understand a bit more. I also read recently that physical violent THREATS are as scary and traumatic as actual assault. I had not really processed that fully but it is TRUE. I wish you many positive thoughts today and ty again Glizzie

You survived and you are still surviving. That takes strength and resilience. Treat yourself kindly. Have patience. Some days are smooth; others are rocky. You can help others by being you. Share your stories if it helps you and/ or them. Blessings.

Aww, very nice post. I hope you continue to heal and grow ❤️

Sorry to hear that you had a terrible time

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