I’ve been doing a lot of soul-searching for the past couple of years. I’ve come to realize that I’m afraid to hurt people that I love and I’m afraid to put myself first. I’m also afraid of change
sex, dating, intimacy and adult romantic relationships.
closely followed by the high risks of losing everything to a woman if I was to have a relationship after two failed ones and it resulting in losing my house, my finances, my things, and perhaps also my kids.
losing independence, being dependent on another person for survival and having very low quality of life: apallic syndrome, blindness, being very sick and not being able to afford the treatment stuff like that