I Keep a JournalI need to write. Sometimes it clears the way for understanding. I read about broken pieces of a persons soul. How this man carried them around for years. Then the pieces spilled out. It stays in my mind. I feel my pieces scattered. Some step on...See More »
I Sometimes Just Want To Run Away To Hide My HurtAs close as I could find to what I'm feeling. I need a fresh start. The problem is I haven't changed enough to move. I still carry extra pounds, still drink a little, and hurt some. All are better and getting better but not where I had hoped to be....See More »
I Wtk Your Song Of The Day And Why"In the Blood" by a John Mayer. "Will it wash out in the water or is it always in the blood." Challenges what we can change about ourselves.
I Am Not a Lonely Person, But I Have a Lonely HeartOk. I know I need to make a change because I am thinking about my ex. For my friends who know me, this is crazy thinking.
I Wtk Your Song Of The Day And Why"You to matter to me." The Waitress. Dear Baby, I hope someday somebody wants to hold you for 20 minutes straight and that's all they do. They don't pull away. They don't look at your face. They don't try to kiss you. All they do is wrap you up in...See More »
I'm Breaking Up With YouLittle heartache today. Breaking up little bits at a time. I meet men. I feel those happy feelings. Then see it won't work. I still like and appreciate the life gifts they've given me. The sweet kiss...the laughter...the human connection...the...See More »
I Am Changing My LifeI need a direction. I see my future self different than my present one. I see a future with a healthy relationship, body, and soul. Healing is a big part of my present. I would rush it if possible. I look back and see how far I have come. I am...See More »
I Am LonelyDarn loneliness. I didn't invite you into my life. You make me long for connection. You bring sadness. How am I surrounded by people and still feel empty?
I Am LonelyI am lonely tonight. Trying not to be. I have extraordinary friends. I know this matters but the kind of lonely I feel is not for a friendship. Tonight, when I wake up in the middle of the night and wish to hear someone sleeping is my lonely....See More »
I Am Looking Forward To A New Beginning And A New Life"Looking forward" is a stretch. I'm already in my new life. Today, I'm thinking about the anxiety you feel in it. I'm not on familiar ground anymore. Nothing about this life reminds me of my old one. Being positive, the cheerful one is part of my...See More »
I Express Myself Through WritingWithout writing I feel lost. Writing helps me decipher the source of my emotions. It's been a long time since I've written. Feels better just putting these thoughts down.
I Am Moving On"But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong..." Rascal Flatts These words are still affecting me. Next Thursday, I face a dream. A dream where I don't belong anymore. Moving on is what I have to do.
I Support Breast Cancer Awareness and Finding a CureI'm ok. Tonight I had Mri and chest X-ray. It's becoming real. Handling it as best I can. The plastic surgeon showed me the implants. Teardrops. They look nothing like me. My friend has them. It's fake. Not me. I want to keep what I have. Full. He...See More »
I Support Breast Cancer Awareness and Finding a CureI feel acceptance. The news is difficult to hear. Tonight I am enjoying my body as it is. Appreciating the curves and the love of my body as it is. I will grieve soon but tonight I am wearing something fun.
I Support Breast Cancer Awareness and Finding a CureMy beautiful sisters and brother...I have cried for 24 hrs. I thought I had this under control but the realization it is actually happening has taken its toll. Today was my meeting with the plastic surgeon. I heard what I knew I would hear. For...See More »
I Starting Over After DivorceJohn Mayer has a song I identify with called, "Lost at Sea." This song gives my soul a boost. I feel lost, but I will be found. I want so desperately to be where I will be but you cannot rush it. I look back and realize every relationship, every...See More »
I Starting Over After DivorceSome days you wake up and want love so desperately. You feel more alone than other days. Today is one of those days. "Your life is a journey of learning to love yourself first and then extending that love to others in every encounter." Oprah How...See More »
I Want to Know Your Top 5 Movies of All Time1. Ever After 2. Something's Got to Give 3. Against All Odds 4. It's Complicated 5. Eat, Pray, Love See a theme:-) :-*
I Support Breast Cancer Awareness and Finding a CureMay 9th...I am up and showered. Heading to meet with a surgeon. I had cancelled my appointment with the oncologist but now question it. Am I moving too fast? Who knows? It seems to be in my personality as a culmination of a lifetime of learning...See More »
I Support Breast Cancer Awareness and Finding a CureI recently was tested for the breast cancer gene and am positive. Words of advice...choose where you have the testing done wisely. I went to my normal doctors office. I expected if true they would ease me into the diagnosis. The first words she...See More »
