I Am Looking Forward To A New Beginning And A New Life
"Looking forward" is a stretch. I'm already in my new life.
Today, I'm thinking about the anxiety you feel in it. I'm not on familiar ground anymore. Nothing about this life reminds me of my old one.
Being positive, the cheerful one is part of my identity. I struggle. Projecting this image is soul stealing.
I am now sitting with the uncomfortable emotions. Loneliness is not hard because it's all me. The other emotions like anger, dissapointment are more difficult because I am saying I have a need. This isn't working for me to another person. I feel incredible anxiety.
I would like to end this on a positive note because it's what I do:-p. I recognize narcissist. I am no longer attracted to them which means I have grown. This is a big one for me. I was a magnet before.
In closing, I am learning to accept emotions as best I can. Self medicating with alcohol sometimes to get through but more sober days than drinking ones.
New life is better but still has challenges. I will keep moving forward.
Today, I'm thinking about the anxiety you feel in it. I'm not on familiar ground anymore. Nothing about this life reminds me of my old one.
Being positive, the cheerful one is part of my identity. I struggle. Projecting this image is soul stealing.
I am now sitting with the uncomfortable emotions. Loneliness is not hard because it's all me. The other emotions like anger, dissapointment are more difficult because I am saying I have a need. This isn't working for me to another person. I feel incredible anxiety.
I would like to end this on a positive note because it's what I do:-p. I recognize narcissist. I am no longer attracted to them which means I have grown. This is a big one for me. I was a magnet before.
In closing, I am learning to accept emotions as best I can. Self medicating with alcohol sometimes to get through but more sober days than drinking ones.
New life is better but still has challenges. I will keep moving forward.
