I Starting Over After Divorce

John Mayer has a song I identify with called, "Lost at Sea." This song gives my soul a boost. I feel lost, but I will be found. I want so desperately to be where I will be but you cannot rush it. I look back and realize every relationship, every home I wanted to buy, pretty much everything...I would not be where I need to be. You cannot make things work. When you are so empty, you want anything to fill this space. I find it impossible to sit alone and quiet.

I am a person who likes to know where she is and where she is going. Nothing has been settled since I left. I left with my clothes. I took nothing else. I am a survivor.

Suggestions of finding the things to do with myself are welcomed. I am back at yoga which I love. I give blood regular. I volunteer when needed. I want to feel settled.

Lost at sea...I will be found.