Going through the hardest time of my life...

Sending you love during this very difficult time. I'm so sorry you are having to experience this.

During this time don't be too hard on yourself, please. This is one of those times when you will be feeling angry and have all sorts of mixed feelings. Everyone experiences grief differently and there's no right or wrong way. It's okay to have these feelings. The death of a loved one is never easy. I pray God will see you through and I know that he does grieve with you and knows your sorrows. I pray he will comfort you and give you a peace that passes all understanding. When times are hard, I try to remember that verse which says when I lean on the Lord and trust in him and keep my mind stayed on him, he gives peace.

I know this is hard for you and I'm so sorry you're having to go through this. If you need anyone to talk to, please feel free to private message me. I may not have all the answers for you, but what I can do, is listen during your most difficult time. I'm thinking of you and am praying for you. I hope you are surrounded by much love and support at this time. Your loved one is, and though that person may not be able to express their feelings right now, I'm sure this person truly appreciates all the love and support they are getting right now. Knowing they are not alone means everything and this will make their journey much easier, though they are in pain.

I wish I could take your pain away and grief, but I cannot. I know God helped me through the times that I lost loved ones. I can't make your grief go away – but if you want to talk about what you are going through, I am here for you, whatever you want to talk about. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers, as well as your loved one. Much love.

I rather like these quotes. Somehow they do feel comforting and I have found at the end of grief, comes the knowing of happiness and peace again. I found that "weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning", knowing my loved one is safe in the arms of Jesus, hurting no more. Psalm 30:5 In grief, I know I can also be happy my loved one suffers no more, was released from pain, and now experiences joy beyond compare. I thank Jesus for that.

“No hour is ever eternity, but it has its right to weep.” ― Zora Neale Hurston

“Grief is like the ocean; it comes on waves ebbing and flowing. Sometimes the water is calm, and sometimes it is overwhelming. All we can do is learn to swim.” — Vicki Harrison

“Grief is the price we pay for love.” — Queen Elizabeth II

There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are the messengers of overwhelming grief, of deep contrition, and of unspeakable love.” — Washington Irving

“Most things will be okay eventually, but not everything will be. Sometimes you’ll put up a good fight and lose. Sometimes you’ll hold on really hard and realize there is no choice but to let go. Acceptance is a small, quiet room.” — Cheryl Strayed

“To spare oneself from grief at all costs can be achieved only at the price of total detachment, which excludes the ability to experience happiness.” — Erich Fromm

“Grief takes many forms, including the absence of grief.” ― Alison Bechdel

“We bereaved are not alone. We belong to the largest company in all the world—the company of those who have known suffering.” — Helen Keller

“It is not length of life, but depth of life.” — Ralph Waldo Emerson

I don't think there is anything you can do or say, except to be there with them, let them know they're not alone when it counts...

Having gone through it twice in the last 12 years, I understand that feeling of helplessness and the constant introspective questions about "what more could I be doing?" Having to do it at your age, and presumably over someone who is passing far too early in their life, I can understand how it would add a lot of anger. At the later stages of life at least we were spared that; you know it is inevitable. The only advice I can give is the same as someone else did: don't forget that the carer, whether actually a caregiver or just providing emotional support, needs care as well. Find some time to take a break and care for yourself. No, you cannot push it totally out of your mind, but don't feel guilty about taking a break because it is for both of you. To the extent they are aware of what is happening, they are concerned about your well-being and are seeing the toll on you.

You know the carer needs care ?
Just as the sick person needs someone to care for them, the person who cares for them need another person to care for them.
Do you have any person in your life doing that for you ? It's much needed....
Music helps, time in the mirror preparing yourself helps (self care, and at the same time putting on some sort of armour, or imagining some colored light around you or whatever is that suits you, maybe wearing a protective stone, any thing that might appear silly that can give you this little extra strength is good), treats and healthy juices, showers, often breaks. Call anyone you can call .. hugs, It's tough... 🤗

Everything in life will pass. Good, bad, Joy, sorrow....nothing stays for ever.

This will pass too.

My recommendation is grief support group so you have a safe outlet for all the emotions this stirs up while when you're with your partner, you can be 100% present and focused on them. Other than that it's no different than other close relationships. Show you appreciate them, take good care of each and every moment together.

Why the anger? Honest question. Having lost many dear friends and family there is no time for anger. The loved one is graduating to something far greater than what we have here. Time for love not anger or pain or anxiety. This earthly life ends but there is life after life.

Just tell them that you are there for them and if they want to talk you won't judge them.

Give time, as much as you can.

Don’t push things so hard that are beyond your control.

There is nothing u can say or do to help. Just got to be there helps