I Am a StuttererAlmost every embarrassing stuttering moment in my life is clear for me to see every time that I'm about to speak. It's like a weight that holds my mouth shut so that I do not add to the list.
I Have Social AnxietyEvery face I see I imagine what's going on in their mind. Are they laughing at me ? Is it the way I talk? Is it how I look? It's everything.
I Feel AloneAnother Christmas and Boxing Day spent in an empty house for the most part. Why would these days be any different from the rest of the year?
I Feel Empty InsideWhen something that should make me sad no longer has any impact because I'm used to it, is that a good sign?
I Love AnimeJust saw the last episode of Naruto Shippuden and while it was a great way to end, it's still the end.
I Feel AloneWhy make the effort to talk to someone when I know it will begin and end badly? It's easier to feel alone than make the effort and fail miserably.
I Feel AloneIt's Christmas and I'm home alone when everybody else is gathered elsewhere having a good time. It's my choice because I wouldn't feel comfortable in a crowd. But that's partly because of some family members' desperate need to analyze my every move... See More »
I Feel UnwantedBecause no one cares. Everyday is the same emptiness even with a lot of people around. They're watching but only to use something I do or say to psychoanalyze me later. Christmas will be just like any other day.
I Am a StuttererI used to be able to talk to an empty room and not stutter but now I can't even do that. Saw myself in the mirror while stuttering and I look like an ogre having a seizure. That's why I can't blame anyone who laughs at me.
I Battle DepressionIt gets to the point sometimes that I can't bring myself to eat something. I've gone to bed hungry a lot recently just desperate to end the day. The problem is the next day isn't any better.
I Do Not Smile OftenBecause there's nothing to smile about and if someone I don't know smiles at me, I would never return the gesture as I try so hard to avoid conversation.
I Am a StuttererAnswering the phone is a nightmare. Several times I've been stuttering like a fool as the other person says "hello" over and over. A ten second conversation may take a minute and leave me embarrassed.
I Act Like I Do Not Care When People Forget My BirthdayI cannot remember the last time anyone remembered my birthday. While I don't care about my family that much it still hurts a little that they don't remember.
I Am a CowardThere were so many things that I wanted to do over the years but didn't because I was afraid. Afraid of embarrassment or rejection. So I hide because I'm ashamed of who I am.
I Am a Quiet Observant PersonBecause it's safer to watch than to jump in , be embarrassed and have that memory forever causing me pain.
I Feel Empty InsideBecause there's nothing and no one to fill it with anything good including myself.
I Feel Like No One CaresOf course no one cares. Why would they? Why would anyone care about a weirdo like me who can't even speak properly? I understand completely.
I Can't Talk to People About My ProblemsHow could I when I'm so embarrassed about my pathetic state. I'd know that they were laughing at me on the inside and I couldn't blame them.
I Have Had Some Embarrassing MomentsJust yesterday was asked where a family member was and immediately got stuck stuttering on the first word. All I could do was point until they understood me. I should be used to this by now but I'm not.
I Am Starved For AffectionI've forgotten what kindness and affection feels like as it's been years since I've felt either.
I Think I Am UglyI don't think it, I know it. When I look in the mirror I see another reason that I don't like myself.
I Am ShyI'd rather not say anything or even make eye contact and risk being thought of as weird than speak and prove that I am. A stranger is just someone who doesn't yet know that I have issues.
