I Battle Depression On My Own

I'm sorry for the trial you are having to endure. It always seems unless someone has been where you've been then they do not know how to respond. It's sad in this world that so many takers but few givers. People don't want to support those who are hurting in this world no matter what they are struggling with. I found when I went through many trauma's in my life that writing and just getting those locked up feelings out helped a lot. Talking to someone like a pastor or even counseling can help if you are ready to do so. Try to not be too hard on yourself and know that it's okay to express whatever feelings you may have inside. Sending positive prayers your way that you'll find the strength in yourself to get through this.

I read these wise words on SW from SoFine41F
I know it might not fit your circumstances fully but hopefully you can take something from it.


True success is being with all the mundane stuff - WHY? 99% of life is mundane.

The best gift that you can give you - is to still the mind.
When a mind is still - then you are not trapped in - mulling over all the aspects of your life, that work or not. When we mull on stuff - we rob us of each moment as it is.

Your first true love is your self love. To build up your self worth is your job. These two life tools of self-love and self-worth are your anchor. Then no matter how others around you act and behave at you - you will be anchored in you.

On YouTube are many music healing meditations that you can begin with - I use Relax River or Vortex Success. Music heals and calms, it will help you silence your mind jibber jabber.

This quote will indicate your next step:

Whenever the internal dialogue stops, the world collapses and extraordinary facets of ourselves surface, as though they had been heavily guarded by our words. You are like you are, because you tell yourself that you are that way.
Don Juan Matus

One more
He who knows others is wise; he who knows himself is enlightened.”
― Lao Tzu

My deepest respect for your resilience and strength, in the face of this savage illness.

Have you thought about getting connected with your local ALS chapter? They can be invaluable networks of support and comradery, for both patient and family caregiver. While facilitating access to quality of life programs/therapies. There is a strong network of expertise and access to continued learning, of the latest advancement.

I realize you are in Canada, but these folks are wonderful to talk to and can possibly connect you to similar such centers in your country.

Forgive me if I'm being redundant, more than likely you're well familar with the info below.

In our heart felt prayers tonight, you and your dear wife 🙏

The ALS Association Greater Sacramento Chapter:

2717 Cottage Way - Suite 17 - Sacramento, CA 95825

(916) 979-9265


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http://websac.alsa.org/site/PageServer?pagename=SAC_homepage


CANADA:

NOT SURE WHAT PROVINCE YOU'RE IN, BUT I SELECTED THE FIRST IN ITS LIST:

https://www.als.ca/support-services/inside-of-ontario/als-clinics/

OTHERWISE:

https://www.als.ca/support-services/other-provinces/

I will never understand why life has to be so painful?!😞Then all you have is each other, just tell her that and how you are feeling too. You are just one person and can't do everything in a day so try to let that go! All you can do is live one day at a time and try to be the best person you can. ⭐I just hang on to the fact that nothing stays the same, which is good when we're living in hard times. When I fell down a flight of stairs I was in a wheel chair for a long time, my boyfriend had to do everything, we had no outside family support either. I would try not to cry in front of him, but sometimes I did. Even when I didn't feel like it I would give thanks for my life....very slowly things have improved. 🍀 Green is a healing color, sending healing prayers for you and your wife.💫🙏🏼

Life is a struggle. I don't know if you are religious or not, but having something/someone to believe in sometimes helps. I'm sorry that you're feeling so alone in this. I know most of the time (especially when in depression) it's easier said than done, but try to do what you love to do whenever you can. It makes life at least a little bit more bearable.

I am so very sorry you are going through this. I have no magic words of wisdom, besides what others have said. Are you religious? Can someone at your church come over and talk with you, counsel you, help you feel better and pray with you? Being a caregiving is so selfless and oftentimes lonely. Are there any support groups for you to attend or maybe participate in online, if you cannot leave her? Try to take a few minutes each day to get outside by yourself, breathe some fresh air, regroup and just be...with no demands on you. Sending light and prayers and comforting thoughts for your wife and you.

Maybe you should check and see if there are any support groups that are for people in this situation

I'm so sorry you're in such a difficult situation. Being a caregiver is one of the most difficult tasks especially when it's someone you love.

You need a break. Is there not some support in your community ie someone who can come in for a few hours and give you a break while caring for your wife? There must be a volunteer agency. I doubt you would place her in a respite bed at this point. Where are your real friends? Geez.

💜 sending thoughts your way

Is there hospice where you are or something like it?

Keep going. Never give up.