I Battle Depression On My Own

It's been a very hard couple days for me. My wife has really struggled in not doing what she used to be able to do and she cries a lot more these days. All I can do is hold her and try to comfort her. It gets harder every day for me to try and cheer her up when I am struggling to stay positive on my own. I have reached out to a few friends for help but they are too busy and don't have time. My family hasn't wanted to talk with me for years. I can't get support from my wife since she has a terminal disease and her family is struggling enough. I've always been there for everyone in my life through the years. I didn't think it was too much to ask to have someone to help me through this, but it seems it is too much to ask.

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GlamGirl · F

I am so very sorry you are going through this. I have no magic words of wisdom, besides what others have said. Are you religious? Can someone at your church come over and talk with you, counsel you, help you feel better and pray with you? Being a caregiving is so selfless and oftentimes lonely. Are there any support groups for you to attend or maybe participate in online, if you cannot leave her? Try to take a few minutes each day to get outside by yourself, breathe some fresh air, regroup and just be...with no demands on you. Sending light and prayers and comforting thoughts for your wife and you.

gmatthewb · 51-55, M

@GlamGirl Thank you for your thoughts. I am not religious actually. I have looked a little for online support groups but haven't had much luck yet. I do go out at times on my own as I still need to get groceries and other shopping at times. It isn't really enough though to help me clear my head. I have tried to find something that interests me enough to get my mind off things for a bit but have yet to find anything to keep my interest due to my own depression and lack of motivation. I have tried a few things over the past few weeks that I think might help, but nothing seems to help enough. I'm not giving up any time soon though. I just wish there was a way to make things a bit easier. Maybe it isn't supposed to be easy. I've always believed, if it is hard to do, then it is worth doing.

GlamGirl · F

I understand. And maybe this isn't your time. It's her time. But remember that everything changes in life. It won't be like this forever. And when your next chapter begins, it will be all about you. Right now you are consumed with her, so it's hard to see that light. But don't give up. Your time will come. Good things are on the horizon for you. i know it. ✨@gmatthewb

gmatthewb · 51-55, M

@GlamGirl Thank you, I am sure things will get better one day. It is very hard to feel that way though when things are so bad now and will get a lot worse. I can't see the light with so much darkness.