I'm a shitty person

My 15 year old sat me down a few weeks ago and had a very similar chat with me about how he felt like crap for not having the motivation to help at all.

You're at an age where you haven't found a purpose yet. You want adventure and new experiences but recognize the on set of adulthood. You aren't on a bad path. It's more a path of awakening to a bigger world realization.

Once you find a purpose and feel the importance of actually getting things accomplished you'll forget these thoughts over night.

You should be proud you recognize your lack of motivation and take the guilt of not helping as a sign of actually maturing. Everything good takes time. You'll learn to embrace the need to do things to help and that in turn with fulfill purpose.

You could try breaking down a chore into a small segment..so think * Ok these dishes will only take 5 mins. To load into dishwasher or maybe 10 min by hand.* Both very short and doable.
I often crank my radio when I do dishes then it goes by in a flash .
And just so you know.. you have worth as a person PERIOD. For existing as a human being..in all the wonders and complexity that is. You have worth every single day simply in that. 🐞🌠💜

i'm in a similar position. my dad wanted me to go out with our family yesterday. i forced myself to throw up and acted like i was genuinely sick. he saw right through me since i do that sorta thing all the time. he was pretty disappointed. though at the same time he can't see how much i'm struggling. or maybe he's ignoring it.

it sucks but try not to to beat yourself up too much. you're going through stuff and need time to work things out. if your parents can't see that and aren't being supportive then that shouldn't make you feel selfish. it's on them.

Motivation is not something you order via Amazon.

Motivation increases when you start doing things.

Start doing things, even small things like doing the dishes will help you develop the motivation you need.

There are days like that but if it happens way too often it's a problem.

Now that you recognize it you can begin changing for the better, 19 is a very difficult age, you're transitioning from child to adult, and it can be overwhelming. Start by helping your mother around the house, doing things for her, the more she compliments you the better you will feel about yourself and motivate you more.