I'm a shitty person

I'm unmotivated, rude and selfish. I'm 19 and can't do something as simple as doing the dishes for my mum when she's busy working night shifts. I struggle to get up and do anything good in my life or help others around me when they're struggling. I don't think I have any worth as a person or life. Maybe this is self-pity, I don't know. I'm just over being me and hurting those around me. I want to change but I'm just so unmotivated for everything.

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looping · 22-25

i'm in a similar position. my dad wanted me to go out with our family yesterday. i forced myself to throw up and acted like i was genuinely sick. he saw right through me since i do that sorta thing all the time. he was pretty disappointed. though at the same time he can't see how much i'm struggling. or maybe he's ignoring it.

it sucks but try not to to beat yourself up too much. you're going through stuff and need time to work things out. if your parents can't see that and aren't being supportive then that shouldn't make you feel selfish. it's on them.