It seems like you've taken on a lot by yourself. Would you consider venting/sharing a bit of your feelings with any one of your friends? You don't have to share everything all at once. Maybe test the waters by sharing just a little bit. I know you don't want to exacerbate their problems, but when among good friends a problem shared can often be a problem halved. It might even help your friends to know that they're not alone.

Allow yourself to receive the same kindness you give to your friends. If your friends are really not an option, would you consider speaking with someone else? Anyone else you can trust. I know what bottling up those feelings is like. Finding someone to speak with could really help in your situation. There should be help lines too that you can call anonymously.

Depending on what's been bothering you more (thoughts or feelings or both), there are techniques that you can do on your own in the meantime.

Sometimes you just have to let go and let other people be. Don't put it on yourself that you're the only one saving them from suicide. If they decide to do that it is 100% on them and if they are determined on it nothing you do will help anyhow. Being used as a therapist by people can be emotionally exhausting. I too like to help people online, talking them off the ledge. But I try to only do so when I am in a good mental place, so that it does not throw me overboard. It is ok to tell yourself you can't handle someone else's problems right now.

If you are struggling with suicidal ideation try to figure out why. Are you having a lot of life stressors? Therapy can help you learn how to cope with that. Are you suicidal for no known reason? Perhaps you struggle with mental illness. Medication can be of great help.

I wish you the best, you sound like a kind person 🌸

I understand trying to help and be supportive of others, I really do, but you have to sometimes put your needs/ your ahead of others, especially strangers. Your friends even though maybe struggling would i think be willing to listen to you, like you do them. Or possibly an online help group? My sister belongs to one.

What you're doing isn't healthy or productive. Get off the cross,you're not Jesus. You don't have to suffer for other people's pain. It's not your job or responsibility to heal other people's trauma and take care of their mental health. How are you supposed to help other people when you're failing to prioritise your own mental health? Why are you using other people as an excuse to avoid taking care of your own mental health? If you don't want to burden other people with your problems because they're in a mentally fragile place then why aren't you protecting yourself the same way you're trying to protect them? No really,think about it, if being a good friend means not burdening a friend who is in a terrible place with your problems, why aren't they doing that to you? Is it because they are bad friends who don't reciprocate the love you give them OR are they good friends who don't get a chance to help you because you refuse to let anyone in?

You have a very kind,loving and nurturing heart for everyone except yourself. There is a fine line between being a helpful friend and being used. There's a difference between being valued and being convenient. When you're valued people will treat you with love and reciprocation. When you are convenient they only reach out when they're down because they know you'll always be there for them even if they mistreat you. To them you're not a good friend,you're an emotional support animal.

You need to take care of yourself because you matter. You need to make yourself and your health your first priority. Lastly you need to give your friends a chance to reciprocate the love and support you give them by communicating that you need it. If you killed yourself and I were your friend I'd be crushed to know that you were suffering in silence when I could've helped you. I'd blame myself for focusing on my own problems when in reality I did ask you how you were doing,you just didn't let me in. I wasn't your friend,I was a patient while you played psychologist/maytr. People who truly love you will care about you.

YOU MATTER!
YOU DESERVE SUPPORT!
YOU DESERVE TO GIVE YOURSELF THE LOVE YOU GIVE OTHERS!

I find jokes having a laugh a few times a day seriously helps I use jokesoftheday.net to find new ones everyday. I’m relying heavily on family too I hope you are able to do that food is a great outlet maybe just a walk once or twice a day get sunlight try to meet ppl. Laughter is best I started reading again then I lost my kindle. Fml
Force a smile sleep lots

Step back from helping others and help yourself this time.

You don't have to be rude. Just learn to set boundaries. You can be a good person without being a doormat.

The thing about burnout is that it is your own self telling you you've been worn down enough and you need rest too. If you keep letting people mishandle you, they won't stop. But what you might end up losing is you. So learn to let go of what you should not be carrying and focus on what you really need to prioritize.

The world will tell you there is a lot. But take it one moment at a time, one day at a time. You'd know what really needs your attention. Right now, right now your own self needs your attention. You oughta to listen, else you'll have to deal with the consequences.

Life is about pleasure, some get it, some never do.
Like lemmings running toward the cliff you can stop some of them at great injury to yourself, or you can just step aside and let that part of life happen, which is what most people do. You can never save them all.
Take care of #1 first. Being around suicidal people all the time isn't going to do you any good. Find pleasure someplace. Mental, or physical, it is out there.

It's theraputic for you to do what you do, such as listening, and helping. Don't forget that you need someone to listen to you, you should also share your suicidal struggles with them. Don't sell yourself short, and share.

This is not advisable at all. If you're vulnerable you should not be trying to help, treat or maintain another's issues while barely sustaining in your own life.

perhaps your help to those people is to point them in the direction of professionals that can assist them.

and perhaps find some help for yourself.

unless you run a suicide hotline - you need to limit your exposure to them.

you daily contact could be to ask them about the progress they are making with goals the counselor/medica provider has worked with them to achieve.

Each one are born to live.. and not to save others from death. Like in the airplane they say, first put on the oxygen mask and then help the child next to you. So you first learn to live and find those who are interested to live .. and not those who wish to die.

Do you have a social worker or any kind of free mental health clinic you can go to?

You are at a point where you are going to have to put yourself first.

Sending a pm

Pray for them, and leave them to God.surround yourself with positive people

Don't set yourself on fire to keep someone else warm.

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