please give opinion of what should I do

half of my friends are struggling in mental health and I do too, i try my best to care for them and comfort them, leading me to comforting atleast 5 people per day (even strangers). Im a bit tired of it but its preventing people from suicide, yet making my thoughts go on stronger. I want to reach out to my friends but theyre also struggling in the process and I dont want to make their problems even harder. So, I bottled up my feelings and let strangers and friends whos struggling vent to me. I also keep up with my cheerful personality, and being dry is SO NOT me at all and they will question me a lot. My suicidal thoughts getting stronger each day, but im trying my hard to comfort people and be there for them. What should I do to make my thoughts get less?

JamesBugman

Life is about pleasure, some get it, some never do.
Like lemmings running toward the cliff you can stop some of them at great injury to yourself, or you can just step aside and let that part of life happen, which is what most people do. You can never save them all.
Take care of #1 first. Being around suicidal people all the time isn't going to do you any good. Find pleasure someplace. Mental, or physical, it is out there.