CrazyMusicLover · 31-35
I don't dwell on it too much but I'm aware it's something I have to take into consideration in a reasonable way much more than years ago. I am not prepared for the death of the close ones though and neither my own.
I was prepared for my grandma's death even if I didn't know it at the time.
Truth to be told, I'm much more concerned about my life in future than death. If I learned that I don't have much time left now, I'd feel a lot of self-pity. It would be too soon. Yet my life isn't going well, so on the other hand, there wouldn't be so much to grieve after. I mean, yeah, life isn't too bad right now but I feel like it's headed in the bad direction so in that case, I wouldn't need to worry about future anymore. I'd handle it better like this than if I was finally doing great, had a love of my life, good career and a prospect for good future. If you know what I mean...
I was prepared for my grandma's death even if I didn't know it at the time.
Truth to be told, I'm much more concerned about my life in future than death. If I learned that I don't have much time left now, I'd feel a lot of self-pity. It would be too soon. Yet my life isn't going well, so on the other hand, there wouldn't be so much to grieve after. I mean, yeah, life isn't too bad right now but I feel like it's headed in the bad direction so in that case, I wouldn't need to worry about future anymore. I'd handle it better like this than if I was finally doing great, had a love of my life, good career and a prospect for good future. If you know what I mean...
Kuronekko · 41-45, F
@CrazyMusicLover I definitely worry more about life and being able to afford to stay alive for a long time 😬
CrazyMusicLover · 31-35
@Kuronekko In good health and standard of living, yeah. 😬
After losing my mom and my husband to deaths that were agony on the way, it’s certainly not something I’m lighthearted about. Best I can do is distract myself from dwelling on it.
Kuronekko · 41-45, F
@OlderSometimesWiser It's hard to watch people die for sure. I am looking forward to seeing them again though.
@bowman81 Ermm…… the enthusiastic thumbs up? 🤔
exchrist · 31-35
Ive died twice so far (on record). Shot three times (one is documented). Brain surgery 3 times. Coma once heart attack twice (neither involved hospitalization).
I dont think about it excessively; it just is. My lack of worrying about it is probably why im still alive.
I assure you waking up in a hospital with no memory of why stopped being "a wake up call" somewhere around the 3rd time.
Its happened at least 7 to 9 times. So many i lost count while keeping careful written record of it while it was happening.
Plus someone stole the laptop i was recording it on. Then poof i woke up in the hospital again.
NOW IM HOME; but until when?
I dont think about it excessively; it just is. My lack of worrying about it is probably why im still alive.
I assure you waking up in a hospital with no memory of why stopped being "a wake up call" somewhere around the 3rd time.
Its happened at least 7 to 9 times. So many i lost count while keeping careful written record of it while it was happening.
Plus someone stole the laptop i was recording it on. Then poof i woke up in the hospital again.
NOW IM HOME; but until when?
WandererTony · 56-60, M
It is not something i want to think about.
Though at a young age it fascinated me, especially the fantacies of afterlife, age has brought close bonds and shown sufferings to others due to early and premature demise. This has made it something i am not ready for. Even to think about.
Though at a young age it fascinated me, especially the fantacies of afterlife, age has brought close bonds and shown sufferings to others due to early and premature demise. This has made it something i am not ready for. Even to think about.
AntisocialTroll · 56-60, F
I am dying, it's not easy, unfortunately I've had regular tasters of what my death will most probably be like. So I likely think about it more than most people do.
You wouldn't let a cat or dog go through this, it'd be considered cruel.
You wouldn't let a cat or dog go through this, it'd be considered cruel.
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Kuronekko · 41-45, F
@AntisocialTroll It is strange that we let humans suffer the way we do. Its not right 😔
JamesBugman · 56-60, T
@AntisocialTroll I believe in the right to die. You should have full control over it, to decide. I believe a lot of people OD on Fentanyl for this very reason. It is easy to obtain and you can administer it yourself. Not sure what death would be like that, but I imagine your brain is so off the rails you won't consciously think about it until everything fades to black.
AntisocialTroll · 56-60, F
@JamesBugman I'm in the UK, Fentanyl is not easy to obtain here and I don't have any kind of contact for drugs except the Dr.
@Punches I have severe Bronchiecstasis, asthma, stage 4 COPD, severe right sided heart failure and a moderate problem with a left hand heart valve, so my breathing is knackered, the heart failure is the worst, I have periods of 20-60 minutes where I just can't catch my breath, no medication helps I just have to do my best to ride them out, they come out of nowhere and I no longer go out because of it, there isn't much they can do about the heart failure attacks except to try and keep the COPD under control, my heart and lungs are enlarged so I've serious pain from that and there are a lot of really horrible things that go hand in hand with the heart failure attacks that I'd rather not go into. Dying can be a lot longer process, that is far more horrible than you'd think.
@Kuronekko Agreed! There have been plenty of times recently that if I'd have had a button to press to just get it over with I would've, unfortunately I just keep going with almost zero quality of life in a constant state of suffering.
My apologies for the long misery post but as I'm sure you can imagine this is the toughest thing I've ever been through and it is making me utterly miserable.
@Punches I have severe Bronchiecstasis, asthma, stage 4 COPD, severe right sided heart failure and a moderate problem with a left hand heart valve, so my breathing is knackered, the heart failure is the worst, I have periods of 20-60 minutes where I just can't catch my breath, no medication helps I just have to do my best to ride them out, they come out of nowhere and I no longer go out because of it, there isn't much they can do about the heart failure attacks except to try and keep the COPD under control, my heart and lungs are enlarged so I've serious pain from that and there are a lot of really horrible things that go hand in hand with the heart failure attacks that I'd rather not go into. Dying can be a lot longer process, that is far more horrible than you'd think.
@Kuronekko Agreed! There have been plenty of times recently that if I'd have had a button to press to just get it over with I would've, unfortunately I just keep going with almost zero quality of life in a constant state of suffering.
My apologies for the long misery post but as I'm sure you can imagine this is the toughest thing I've ever been through and it is making me utterly miserable.
thepreposterouspanda · 36-40, M
I think about it pretty often. I've been wrestling with suicidal ideation since I was 11 and was more or less in a coma when I was 22. Consciousness fascinates me and I hope I continue on somehow after this physical body has given up at some point but it's all so ambiguous and freaks me out. 😅
It's something that I can think about lightheartedly if I think about it or talk about it like I am right now ,but when I actualise it it terrifies me. My brain actively stops me from doing so most of the time however and I have to try to get to that state. Sometimes it does happen randomly , and that gives me panic attacks
Kuronekko · 41-45, F
@PepsiColaP Do you believe in an afterlife?
@Kuronekko unfortunately no
Beautywithin · 36-40, F
I think about it a lot. It interests in the way one mintue we can be here then the next our heart stops beating and we are gone forever.
I'm not afraid of death when my time is up only then will i feel my heart and mind will be at rest.
I'm not afraid of death when my time is up only then will i feel my heart and mind will be at rest.
PiecingBabyFaceTogether · 31-35, M
I'm conflicted. Parts of me finds it peaceful and an end to all the suffering but I don't like that I know how it's going to happen to me it's a very uncomfortable feeling being told by doctors how you are going to die from an early age.
It's something I have to live with.
It's something I have to live with.
Punches · 46-50, F
I do not relish the idea that life just ends one day. It just does not seem real. Yeah I worry about it.
I mean what if all that religious stuff is true and most of us will end up in h3ll? Yeah I know it is a stup*d thing to worry about, indoctrination etc but what if...?
You know when we are young, it seems like everyone had plans for how we should live, the future already decided. But at some point that stops. We go through all the motions of marrying, having kids, trying to build a life, but after all that and before the big day, what are we suppose to be doing?
We think we know so much going through life but eventually we find out we know nothing.
EDIT - on top of that, a few years ago I lost my room mate to illness. She was 30 years old. This d3ath business becomes very real when we see something like that.
I mean what if all that religious stuff is true and most of us will end up in h3ll? Yeah I know it is a stup*d thing to worry about, indoctrination etc but what if...?
You know when we are young, it seems like everyone had plans for how we should live, the future already decided. But at some point that stops. We go through all the motions of marrying, having kids, trying to build a life, but after all that and before the big day, what are we suppose to be doing?
We think we know so much going through life but eventually we find out we know nothing.
EDIT - on top of that, a few years ago I lost my room mate to illness. She was 30 years old. This d3ath business becomes very real when we see something like that.
Thevy29 · 41-45, M
I have worked in Palliative care too long to be afraid of it.
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JamesBugman · 56-60, T
@Thevy29 you know that finger wasn't meant for you right?
Entwistle · 56-60, M
I do think about it and how even if I have 20 years left (which is unlikely) my body will be old and probably in pain.
Death..well I believe it's impermanent..all states are impermanent..if nonexistence were permanent I wouldn't be here now.
Death..well I believe it's impermanent..all states are impermanent..if nonexistence were permanent I wouldn't be here now.
YoMomma ·
It's something i think about in passing but i'm not close to the subject.. everyone dies far away from me unlike my friend who had to see dead people in person in traumatic ways 😬
SinlessOnslaught · M
You left out an option. 😅 I obsess over death in a fearful way because I dread endings and feel the need to know what happens afterward.
JamesBugman · 56-60, T
@SinlessOnslaught You mean like when your brain stops working and your body rots and you turn to dust? What do you think happens? Some invisible god is going to swoop down and scoop up your spirit and whisk it away to some magical beach where you spend the rest of eternity playing harp? Believe whatever you want to believe.
SinlessOnslaught · M
@JamesBugman Sounds like you hold a lot of frustration but thanks for your input.
Most everyone I've ever loved/trusted died. I was already slightly morbid and fascinated with dark things, so death doesn't scare me, I just don't want to leave my son too soon.
DoubleRings · 51-55, F
Since my parents died it’s all I think about tbh. Idk why losing them has really made me think about my own mortality maybe bc I know I’m next. And I’m not a spring chicken either.
Lilymoon · F
looking forward to the release of it
Is a good way to put it ... it's the getting there that's stressful.
JamesBugman · 56-60, T
I think about it often yea. When I get a pain in my chest I think.. oh, is this it, is this the end, but then it turns out to be just a muscle ache. Bah.
I expect a real heart attack hurts like a mofo, but not really enough time to get used to it or anything.
I ride motorcycles, scuba dive, entertain horny men late at night, I could go at anytime, but hasn't happened yet.
It will be an interesting experience for sure.
I expect a real heart attack hurts like a mofo, but not really enough time to get used to it or anything.
I ride motorcycles, scuba dive, entertain horny men late at night, I could go at anytime, but hasn't happened yet.
It will be an interesting experience for sure.
exexec · 70-79, C
As an older person, I think about preparing for death. Is everything in order legally? Passwords available for survivors? Instructions for cremation and other "final things"? I don't fear death, but I wonder how it will happen.
Northwest · M
My biggest concern, is for those left behind when I'm gone.
Matt85 · 36-40, M
same as you, basically.
For me it's solace and Peace. I don't want to suffer but I don't fear dying.
BlueVeins · 22-25
I really don't like the fact that my lifespan is biologically limited and I'm slowly inching towards sickness and death.
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It depends on my mood. We are a long time dead so might as well make the most of it.
Yes I do too a little too much, I wish for it already.
JackHoff · 46-50, M
I dont worry about it. When it comes it comes.
MartinTheFirst · 26-30, M
Death doesn't matter that much to me, since I have my faith
JohnOlinger81 · 41-45, M
I aint gonna die im gonna be immortal & live forever on earth
Kuronekko · 41-45, F
@JohnOlinger81 you're a wizard, harry.
JamesBugman · 56-60, T
@JohnOlinger81 It's the transition from human to Tortoise that really hurts, kills most folks.
acpguy · C
I tell my wife that my that I sleep very well as I am practicing being dead.
HeadAboveWater · 31-35, M
Destination is a to b - life to death - enjoy the journey
MethDozer · M
I don't welcome or look forward to it but I don't fear it either.
BeJeweled · 61-69, F