Is death something you think about/ are lighthearted about?

I don't dwell on it too much but I'm aware it's something I have to take into consideration in a reasonable way much more than years ago. I am not prepared for the death of the close ones though and neither my own.
I was prepared for my grandma's death even if I didn't know it at the time.

Truth to be told, I'm much more concerned about my life in future than death. If I learned that I don't have much time left now, I'd feel a lot of self-pity. It would be too soon. Yet my life isn't going well, so on the other hand, there wouldn't be so much to grieve after. I mean, yeah, life isn't too bad right now but I feel like it's headed in the bad direction so in that case, I wouldn't need to worry about future anymore. I'd handle it better like this than if I was finally doing great, had a love of my life, good career and a prospect for good future. If you know what I mean...